Now almost all of my close friends know I like him. I didn't want them to know because now he has a girlfriend whose in the same class as us. I think this will stay as a crush, because I never feel too pained to see them a little bit close at class. Some classmates even teased them, which kinda hurt me.

There's this one friend that I really don't want her to know, because, well, she had a big mouth. It'll slipped off her tongue. Now that she knows, I was hoping she'd be silent about it.

I'm quite proud of my acting skills, or rather, ability to hide my emotions well. If I really want to hide my feelings, I really can. But I'm not the type of person to bottle up all feelings to themselves. Just hoping that he himslef won't have to know. Because, well, he has a girlfriend. And I'm still hoping for a chance. isn't that... low? Humiliating? , maybe? So, I'm hopimh to just forget.

I'm even starting to hate him. When I look closer, he actually cheats al ot in tests, also quite an exaggerating person like his girlfriend lol. 

I have nothing to say anymore. Bye.