okay... so... two of my aff friends talked about their love story/life or somthing.... and i just wanted to share stuff...

it's really complicated and i don't know what i feel...

 

it all started about... november last year (maybe?). i was going to go to my economics teacher's room... and it so happens his (lets call him... Tak. XD) room was to the right (or left idk ono) of my econ teacher's room... so i had to pass by Tak's room. (otl this is confusing) it was dismissal time alr, so his class were going out, packing their stuff, etc. he passed by me and called my name. sure, i looked back at him. my friend, (who was his classmate) said, "Yiie, Tak has a crush on you!" i was like... okayy~ since he might be joking or smth.

 

then... months passed by. it was just 2 weeks ago, (i think) when i was on the court of our school. his friend, who has his arm around Tak, swooned by me and said my name is drunk kind of way. Tak pulled themselves away... and i was just plainly confused.

 

minutes after, his other friends called me... and the 'dancing stick' (xDD) said, "Can you scream?" Of course I replied, "What for?" He answered, "I just want to know how loud your voice can get." 

 

I screamed, but only a faint "AHH". XD then it hit me on the way home... "Does Tak have a crush on me?"

 

the next day... his friend caught up with me in school and said, "Hey, Jaemi (that's not my real name tbh) do you know Tak has a crush on you?"

 

I was flabbergasted at that time. I shouted, "I noticed that a long time ago!" XDD

 

then the whole grade of my class (not really lol) knew about this. they were asking, "do you know he likes you?" or "he likes you."

 

of course, i'm like, blegh. last year, 2 boys liked me... LOL

 

One night... someone texted me on the phone. It was him. him. he introduced himself by: "I'm takbskhfbi, the one that has a crush on you." then on another... "pls text back."

 

Fck him, man! I didn't have any load on my phone... but he sent me some... so sure, i talked to him... he kept asking things like, "When are you allowed to have a boyfriend?" i sighed... we're too young, tbh. STUDIES FIRST! (and oppa ohohoho) 

 

the next day... he gave me chocolates (with the help of his friends aka messengers, because he doesn't have the courage to walk up to me) and i didn't accept it. I clearly told him the night before that i won't let him court me... because dude. i have high fricking standards (curse you oppa) and... we're too young. 

 

since then, i tried to talk to him, but i was shy to do so. /slapped. he was mean. he used my friend to biuld a bridge to get closer to me. he was like pretending to have a crush on my friend to get close to me! heck, i didn't even know he 'liked' her! >< he's a son of a btch!!! >< 

 

i was really angry... i wanted to talk to him, to say that "Fck you, you hurt my friend and now you expect me to like you because of that?" and i wanted to friendzone him so badly! i don't like him! ><

 

but... there was a change in me. that night when we texted, i keep on tossing myself to and fro on my bed... i admit, i was thinking of him. 

 

at school, he seems to pass by, and i peeked to get a look at him. my face always heated up. during breaks, i could feel his gaze and my heart skipped a beat. 

 

at night... it replays in my head. No, I don't like him! But why am I like this when I know he's there... probably looking at me?

 

i thought, maybe i was just flattered, because no one was this serious before... 

 

but... this whole weekend... when we went to the mall... a thought said, "i wonder if i'll see him." i tried to brush it off, but no. it wouldn't.

 

i need help. TT^TT I'm confused whether I like him or not. In some parts he's cute, and the rest are just BLEGH.

 

>< Eottokhae~!? He's a total motherfcker for doing it to my friend... but that just proves that... he's really serious.

 

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! >< 

 

Maybe this is all in my head. I can't be. Sirheo. Sirheo. SIRHEOOO /throws everything in sight/