i'm typically not one to complain about their parent(s) over the internet, or at all, really, but i honestly cannot take it any longer.

they always get on my case about not socialising and e. however, as soon as a situation arises in which i am asked if i want to hang out, my request is always denied by my parent(s) and it really gets on my nerves. day after day, i wake up, go to school, get above-average grades and percentages, and they're still not satisfied. honestly, do they really expect me to maintain a social life while attempting to get 100% in every single one of my nine courses? i understand that they want the best education they never had for me, but they must understand on their part that they cannot keep sheltered for very long. i have stayed as a pliant star child in their lives, always being polite and the confidant of their worries and feelings, but it's not fair. it really isn't, having to constantly console one or more persons who should stand as the adults in your life, the strong, all-knowing figure(s) who raised you. watching them break and reduce to ashes and salt water tears isn't fun. it pierces you the first time, realising that, if they can't hold it together, can you? you are just a child and they should be much older and experienced and should be the ones consoling you, not the other way around. you're left as a floundering salmon with the desire to flee back to familiar ground, to the vast ocean you've left, but you find that you cannot. and you get used to it, eventually, as you feel yourself dry and your organs fall to do their job just like you had, the one of being the perfect, understand, pliable figure people have expected you to be.

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yifawn.