2014.

The new year.

With the depression of 2013.

I really, really, really, wanted this to be a happy year---even just for a while.

Why? Why? Why?

Even though you two aren't my oshimen...even though you two I don't know well...

So suddenly, the mood of 2014 goes down. 

Sato Seira and Mukaida nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnManatsu have announced their graduation

Seira wishes to take her knowledge in SKE along with her to have fame in where she wants.

That strawberry loving Manatsu has University to aim for.

I get it. It's something I should be cheering them on for. I know, I know, I know, I know...but... it's just so hard.

Why? Why? Why?

I wonder why fate has to be so cruel to make it so, this idiot never bothers to care about those girls much until their graduation.

For Manatsu, it was just a small bit of exposure--ManaChuri and such.
For Seira-san, I never even scratched the surface. I'm such and idiot, a fool....

2013. 2014. The attack on the hearts of fans...the hearts of SKE fans is never stopping, flurries of vicious poisons flung at us.

I wonder how many people will actually be able to support their graduating oshi in the future if the girl is aiming for showbiz?

I wonder how many hearts are broken, warmed and pieced together to be once again cracked apart.

2010. 2011. 2012. It just gets worse and worse. I wonder why?

if that list from 2ch is real...that these girls will graduate:

Kizaki Yuria
Oya Masana
Mukaida Manatsu
Sato Seira
Takayanagi Akane
Kato Rumi
Sato Mieko
Takagi Yumana
Matsumoto Rina
Yamada Mizuho
Suga Nanako
Kinoa Yukiko
Miyamae Ami
Mizuno Honoka
Yamada Reika
Yano Azuki

Already so many have graduated.

I know I'm selfish.

A number of girls could do better in showbiz alone rather than smushed by management and kicked into the backrows to stale.

But...my heart tears apart thinking about these leavings...

I don't want Churi to go--that's final. Even though I don't even know the others that well, I don't want them to leave.

I don't know anymore...

I'm still sad over Nanako a bit...
and if I only...Niidoi-chan...

Damn...this ...

A good question.... why is life so depressing?