What will you do if you failed in giving speech/debate in front of the class? 

I feel really bad rn. Since it's the first time I didn't give a good talk for an English oral, I feel so small. I can feel that others are laughing at my accent and mocking on my stupidity. I looked terrible. Ugh

I feel like losing hope rn. No, it's a small matter for some of you but to me, it's hella big problem. 

Now people started to ask me why I always tweet in English/ do a lot of articles if I can't even talk properly in English.

I was nervous. Plus I only slept for a few hours yesterday because of homeworks. Sigh.

I know I shouldn't rant, just letting it out tho. It's okay, I don't mind. I'm a terrible writer as well.

I should get over this. Flaws are everywhere. People made mistakes, right? Maybe I should pracctice more on my English to not look like an idiot. I must. Next oral is around 2 weeks' time, better be prepare.

Plus it's me who always stand out. So I must prepare and improve my English talking and accent, or else.

P/s: A friend lend her "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" novel to me, and I'm so excited. A way to celebrate the worst day, I guess? I've watched the movie. It's a stunning movie with not so complicated plot, but meaningful and youthful in so many ways. Had a little crush on Patrick. Well actually Ezra Miller. He's cute. 

Going to do a lot of updates this and next week. Yay. 

I hope I'm not too sad after what happened. Sorry, just being silly.

"We accept the love we think we deserve"

"You can't just sit there and put everybody's lives ahead of yours and think it counts as love​"

"Right now we are alive and in this moment I swear we are infinite"

- Quotes taken from "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" by Stephen Chbosky