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❋Tomo Wuang.
          strangers turned into friends then best friends and now lovers. 
(  none of my feelings can be described whenever i talk to you babe )

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am i gonna start blabbering again? to write an essay for you again? i think yes u_u because honestly you know how much i write whenever i'm random and i know this font is small so i really hope you can read it because i'm having a hard time looking at this font ._. but i can't change it lol since it's a layout. wellll i was thinking of what to get you for birthday and i had no idea,idek what to write! but well.. i think this letter would do? c:  Happy Birthday baby girl. you're one year older now! yaaay sweet sixteen! and i'm so grateful to be able to spend this year with you! we have known each other for a year now yayayayayayay! /spazzes everywhere/ thanks for coming into my life and making it brighter! and may god bless your parents for creating you ehem /bricked/ u_u i honestly wanna go to them and hug them tightly and thank them ;w; and i shall say happy new year in advance too! thanks for coming into this world <3 well,where should i start? hmmm we first met each other in kbbu.i was daehyun back then and you joined as baekhyun,i remember the only time we talked back then was when you updated your picture album and i would comment on it..back then..i never thought you would be the one who is gonna change my life forever.you were just a normal person to me until i changed to seukhye and one day you suddenly messaged me and started spazzing over me! and i was like "._. is he ok" but then i ended up spazzing over you and bam! we spazzes till the end of the day lolol idk how we became friends but i know it was because we felt comfortable and we also went out! we went to han river and ate bibimbap! then you took me to exo's dorm and i found my pictures in your room pshhh u_u such a fanboy XD /laughs/ honestly speaking,now that i look back at our memories it makes me laugh. why we so cute /shot/ and if i could i would screencap everything but your account got disabled so...e____e thinking about it makes my blood boil asdfgh /flips fb/ but it's ok. the memories are in my heart. and oh did you know that i'm taking two days to only write and prepare everything for you? and it's like 6 in the morning ugh orz anyways! back to the story, you became puppy baek then i became your tokki. we talked a lot! to the point that it felt weird not talking to you for a day. we would spazz together,over baekhyun and seukhye of course. and i started liking you from the start--it was wrong of course,you were only a friend and you already had a partner in rp and the only thing i could do was to hide my feelings and that just made us closer,we soon became bestfriend. idk how but we did..we even started our own movie and omg i miss it a lot ;;;;; we gotta do another one soon you know. in roleplay,we had lots of things together.we roleplayed well,we had dramas which could break us apart but we stayed together no matter what and i'm glad i had someone to relay on no matter what.there was a limit for us in roleplay i know but soon enough we started talking ooc and even sooner,we became close friends in rl. and gosh my feelings jsut grew deeper an deeper and i was glad i could love you endlessly in reality at least.you suddenly became so important to me and each thing you did just made me fall for you deeper. your weirdness,your hyperness,your randomness,your everything..you're beautiful inside and outside and i'm glad that i met you.you were there no matter what. we have known each other for one year and we have been through so much. but i will never ever regret meeting you. it's crazy how i fell for you i mean--everything was supposed to be roleplaying but the more we talked,the more i got to know you. i found out that now--you are my bestfriend yes but you're turning into my love too. at first i thought everything was onesided so i hided all of my feelings,i didn't only want you in roleplay. i wanted you in real too. i wanted you to be mine but it would be weird....a girl falling for a girl. uh--i'm not even lesbian how could this happen? i told myself that no. it's just a crush nothing much i just adore her personality and all of that crap but looking at how possessive i get over you. at how jealous i get over you. at how my heart beats whenever i talk to you. at how i react whenever i'm with you.. i can tell you that no,this isn't a simple crush. maybe this is called love? and when i found myself deeply in love with you..you suddenly dissapeard from my life. maybe it was god's punishment for me? telling me that no. you can't love her too much,it's wrong. internet love? long distance relationship? no no no girl. at first when i saw you changing i thought that maybe you only have a bad day but in other roleplay it wasn't only one day that you were like this..it was everyday,you became someone i didn't know. you became someone far far away from the person i fell for. then began the ignoring--you dissapeard from my life and gosh i don't even wanna think of those days...you didn't talk to me for like 4 months straight? and during these 4months everyday was hell.i found myself looking for you,waiting for you. i found myself changing. a change that till now even though you're back,the signs are not gone. i found myself in pain over what? a girl who lives ar far away from me and god knows what she is doing atm.you were in my mind all the time. i kept on thinking about you even in my dreams you were there. i started to hate tomato because whenever i looked at it,your picture came into my mind and then babam i was depressed once again. i tried to replace you,to tell myself that it's nothing. i don't love her. she was just a close person who is no longer there but damn nothing worked. people told me to forget you, they were annoyed with me. they were tired to see me crying but i couldn't. i tried to forget you i really tried to but i couldn't. memories were there and they were hunting me down. i couldn't stop myself. i was deeply in love and i only needed you to make me feel better. to make me feel hyper again. to make me smile but you were not there. and then came that day when i wrote that long letter for you. i saw you coming back..i saw you but..you never contacted me,you never spoke to me and i thought "oh wow.maybe she forgot about me,it's time to move on armita" and the time i sent you that letter and cried for the whole night...i slept and woke up to see myself numb. i forced myself to not even think of you and guess what? i succeed.i didn't cry anymore. i just became feelingless. now no matter what happened i didn't feel any pain nor love. i gelt nothing. i was like a walking corpse and maybe that was better and then after one month..you sent me that letter. that totally caught me off guard,i wasn't expecting a reply from you and i will be honest,after reading the letter of yours,i had plans on rejecting you, i had plans on not talking to you. i had plans on giving you the same pain you gave me. i had plans on forgetting you. i had lots of plans but.. i couldn't do any of them. because you were still the reason of my smile and i was longing for that smile. i was longing for the feeling of being truly loved and and...one thing that made me forget everything was the confession of you,loving me too. and i couldn't help myself but to feel happy! i was happy after a long time and with only that i forgave you. it's crazy but i did. but then again luck wasn't on your side,you dissapeard again and once again i had to wait for you but your messages once in a while made it easier for me to wait and now that you are back. i'm happy. i'm very happy. i don't know what to do to be honest but i know that i'm happy and it's gonna take me a while to return back to my old self. or maybe longer than that but please bear with me. i'm still the same armita. and you..you're still the girl i fell for and yes. i'm not ashamed to admit it. but i love you,more than a bestfriend and maybe you don't love me the same way but i don't care. I thank God for giving you back to me, i will be more careful from now on and now that you are back.. i just wanna talk to you like before. talk nonsense be random. i just wanna catch up with you .with everything. and maybe in future,we will take bigger steps. for now i just wanna get to know you more,to roleplay too because gosh i just miss you so much and i'm grateful because i can spend this new year with you and your birthday too! and christmas! it's our first time you know /chuckles gently/ you changed me Tomo. and tbh,feelings can't be described into words but i just wanna wish you a happy birthday and may god bless you. i wish you the best,i wish you happiness and joy in new year and hopefully this new year will be a great one for us! i want you to smile all day along. and i just want you by my side and ugh,this essay got way too long and most of it i was talking about myself i think ._. omg kill me lol /dies/ orz but you know what? you're amazing to me.you're perfect in my eyes. i love every single thing about you, i don't care about others. idc if some people don't like you.  i want you to know that i love you sososososo much. and probably will always do.never feel down or sad,everything happens for a reason and i'm glad,god gave us a second chance. let's spend this chance well uh? and let's love! /bricked/ thanks for being there for me,thanks for making my worse days into better ones. thanks for worrying about me,for helping me thank you for loving someone like me. thanks a lot. i hope we can last longer than this. i hope we can meet each other one day in real too! and i hope i really hope our feelings won't change. i lost you once . i don't want the same thing to happen. promise me you will try too? promise me that this won't be the end? promise that you will love me like how i do? promise that we will be together no matter what happens? promise me that our bond will get stronger?
you're someone sosososo special to me and i wanna ask god for letting you stay with me forever ;w; i love you way more than i love my jewelries and believe me,that's a lot! A LOT OK? ALOT ._.V
ok we're reaching to the end of this letter and i just wanna wish you a happy birthday once again! :') eat a lot and just be happy. i may not be there with you physically but my heart and soul is there,forever with you so just celebrate and be crazy! \o/ woohoo,let's start this new year together too. hopefully 2014 will be a better year for us. i love you the to to my mita. our ship will forever sail and never sink! Tomita for the win! *^* /blows kisses,hugs,myself and baekhyun,money and gifts and everything you like/ 8D <3

SARANGHAE MY ONE AND ONLY  \o/ <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 xoxoxoxoxoxo
 

 love? that's you.
  you're my kind of perfection. 
(   my heart is taken by you ┊  will you give me your heart too? )
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you changed me.

don't think that i will just end your present here ;) /slapped/ so i'm not very fond with tumblr and
i had to ask my friends to help me with this and that but here is my real birthday present! i know it's nothing big
i wish i could give you a gift in real but it's too late to take your adress and send you a gift but i promise i will do it soon -u-
one day maybe? hahaha it's a surprise! and every quote in there! i hope and know you will relate it. because everything
is our little secret ;3 over all i hope you like this sassy blog 8'D and there's a hidden gift there so stay in the blog for atleast 30 minutes ok? ;)
Visit this site baby,it's for you and me and it may be a little messy cuz i'm not so familar with tumblr so sorry ;;
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`❋with -love - Armita.  

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