It's hard know that people have changed and so have I. This past year has been very tough on my brain and the people that surround me once are the not there anymore. They might not realize it, but it hurts me too. Being strong for too long can affect things here and there. I hope that they can look back and see we've had great times but we don't all last forever.

Saying goodbye is different from "the end."

Goodbye.

It's hard to hear because you can tell the relationship you once had can't be the same and special as it once had.

You smile and I smile back. Nothing more to exchange. And I can tell. Tucked inside the corners of your shimmering smile. It hurts. Feeling the pain swish around in the back of your throat, sprouting from the depths of your broken heart.

Don't take it on as fakeness. We both hurt. We need to see the pain goes both ways and that we need time to heal. It's the only thing that can heal us. I'm not trying to start a war with you.

We have all had twists and turns in our own paths. Maybe this is for the best.

For anyone who may feel the same just know, I'm on your side. The closer you look, those people you may think are just standing around you, but they are truly on your side too. They'll arise when you have stumbled, and they will catch you will loving arms and give you the shoulder you need to lean on.

It won't hurt to share. I understand, the first few words are hard, but once you let it all out, you will feel as if you had let the birds fly free from the cage. They aren't there for nothing. They share the burden with you. That is why they are there. Because the love they have for you is so strong, they put out the time for you to heal a little faster. To feel a little bit safer.

We all just love you for you and for everyone else who disagrees, they just need a simple smack across the face.

I want to wish you all a very happy new year, and may the new years bring you a new chapter of amazingness that has already begun.