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I’ve been meaning to write this for a while now, and I’ve learned through Tumblr and school that I actually really like to write letters. And, I would have written this yesterday, since it was the 26th in Korea, but it was Christmas here, so, I’m writing this today, where it is the 26th.

I mean this to all of you, and that should be a given considering the picture above. No, it’s not me just putting my input for this day just for Homin or it’s not me just doing this for JYJ. This is for all five of you. I’m writing this letter for U-know Yunho, Hero Jaejoong, Micky Yoochun, Xiah Junsu, and Max Changmin. This is just my little piece for Dong Bang Shin Ki; the five of you.

To our infinitely precious Dong Bang Shin Ki, 

Let me just start off by saying  Happy 10th Anniversary. Honestly, 10 years of being the legends that you are is epic and just crazy amazing. 10 years of blood, sweat, tears, hugs, smiles, laughs, victories, downfalls, etc. 10’s a special number, and I’m glad to have been able to celebrate this with all the other Cassiopeias out there.

Now, it really hasn’t been all that long since I’ve been a DBSK fan. My bias group is Super Junior, but that didn’t mean that I knew legends when I saw them. And, I had a feeling I’d really love your music, and just one fateful day, I decided to check out Why Did I Fall In Love With You?.  It was always just there on the side of my suggestions on Youtube, Jaejoong’s face just staring into my soul, so, I checked it out…and died…I honestly liked it that much. And then of course, I told my DBSK-obsessed best friend and she eagerly recommended more of your songs and it was all a blur after that XD

I’ve seen some international fans get a little pouty when they see your messages about the fans that have stuck with them from the beginning, especially when a lot of Cassies haven’t been fans since 2003. But, really, I understand why of course, you’re celebrating 10 years together, not just with the members and companies together, but with all the fans that’ve been there. And, well, it’s not like you don’t love all the other fans, heck, you’re so thankful to them, right? :D  Realistically speaking, I couldn’t have been a fan from the beginning because I was only 6 at the time and I’m fairly certain the only music that I listened to at the time were the Caillou and Dora the Explorer theme songs…

So, I really am grateful to have come across your music and it goes to show that things can really move us so easily. No, I wasn’t there right from the beginning. No, I wasn’t there when your popularity in Japan skyrocketed. No, I wasn’t there when you became even more Hallyu stars. No, I wasn’t there when the disgusting beyond words lawsuit happened. No, I wasn’t there when your pain could be seen afterwards with the effects of the split. No, I wasn’t there when you officially moved on in separate groups and had comebacks. No, I wasn’t there when Yunho was crying when singing Balloons or when JYJ were crying when singing W.

But, I was still able to feel it. I ended up watching all your videos and shows and listening to all of your songs and just have a roller coaster of emotions that came with being a Cassiopeia. I’ve become such a blubbering baby this year, that the sight of like, a really cute kitten makes me tear up. So, imagine how I must’ve felt seeing all these tribute videos and listening to all of your old songs and just really being able to see something like this. Love in the Ice is one of my absolute favorite songs from you guys and I’ve listened to it several times in the past two days. crying at least twice T_T

Yes, you’ve made me cry tears, tears over this stupid lawsuit that still gives all of you that you don’t deserve. It isn’t fair and it’ll never be fair. Honestly, many groups nowadays probably will never compare to the closeness that just oozed from what everyone knows as DBSK. And, I could never even describe the freaking bond that I could see when I look at all of your old stuff. It downright amazes me. 

So, yes, along with many Cassies out there, I’m still going to be a fan that will keep believing, that’ll wait for as long as it takes until all five of you stand on the same stage together once again. I’ll still always support the TVXQ and JYJ now, but I can’t deny that I want the five Rising Gods of the East, the Kings of K-pop, to come back with each other again. The amount of love that you five have for each other and for your fans and vice versa, now that is a force to be reckoned with. 

Like it was said in W:

I still believe that it is not just by chance

It wasn’t a coincidence that you five met; it was Goddamn fate.

We are painting the W in the same way

You are still continuing on doing what you truly love and making sure that you’re there for all of your fans.

Keep in mind that I love you

Even if other people or stupid SM Ent. tries to tell you otherwise, you know that you can’t forget the past memories and that you still love each other…that’s not going to change and you can’t even deny it.

Our paths will cross again, I am thinking about you every time I close my eyes, you’re everything

You are each other’s everything, and yes, I might sound delusional at this point, but there’s no doubt in my heart that you won’t cross paths again. God didn’t just put you together in the beginning just to have you be split forever, I know that.

We still believe that it is not “Good bye”

It sure as Hell isn’t.

Thank you for just being these infinitely wonderful people that have endured so much, have brought music and performances that move me so much, and for taking me on such a great journey of being your fan. I’ve really come to loveyou and I’ll still always support you. I say this all the time, and along with all the Cassies out there, I’ll still keep saying it: Always Keep The Faith.

Love,

Just another Cassiopeia, Anika