December 25 2013.

I’ve never been this active online back then. I’ve always been the silent fan – I ship, rant and spazz over things SECRETLY and sometimes, I visit pann/nate, naver, daum and ask for my friends who know korean to translate it for me ((for my own sake of spazzing)). As time goes by, (I could still remember it was Chanyeol’s birthday in 2012, one of my first biases) I decided to make a back up account for spazzing and little did I know that it would bring me to a different world I could, somehow, never imagine. To be honest, it was all new to me, especially the international fans – I’ve met a lot of people in my first kpop twitter account and I was really happy because on that day on, I was able to spazz with them and share the same stuff with them. I admit that I never liked sharing what I feel towards my biases and all that but when I met a few people who share the same interests as me; I can say that totally grew to love tweeting a lot and talking to some fan girls a lot, too.

But this year’s much cooler than ever, if you’d ask me why, well my other account was hacked and I had to use my first jailed account and there, I met a lot more people whom I share the same interests with. Having more followers was nothing, tbh. As long as the majority of it are the people you talk to a lot – then it’s definitely enough for me and I just want to let you know that the purpose of this long message is actually for everyone to know how thankful I am for being in the kpop fandom and for taking the risk, man, the fact that I totally got immersed into this fandom made me feel that I really did the right choice (although sometimes there are a lot of immature people that should’ve been kicked out), I’m really grateful that I’ve met and was surrounded by the people whom I really wanted to be surrounded by – which are the open minded ones and the mature ones which I’ve learned a lot from.

Also, I’m going name a few people who made my 2013 complete, I know it’s still isn’t the New Year’s Eve, but since it’s Jesus’ birthday and Christmas is also about thanking the people around you, here’s a little short messages for my lovely girls.

KC – 11/07/11 (PS, Seohyun and Yoona’s numbers, yes?), the day when we first met, yup! We met as fangirls and I bet we’ll be forever fan girls together forever! Thank you so much for being such a considerate and appreciative friend. I’ve never been that open to anyone (especially when it comes to SNSD/EXO/APINK/BASICALLY KPOP) in irl but when I found out that there are so many common stuff about us, truthfully, I knew that we’ve always been connected. We’re similar when it comes to group biases; from SNSD down to EXO, of course, from what we dislike down to what we don’t really appreciate and a lot more but of course, there are also some things we prefer differently but I know those similarities and differences helped us build our friendship and I know it makes our relationship stronger.

Addition: I just read your message and I’d like to let you know that you’ve also been a big help for me as a companion. Thank you so much and nope, I will never consider you as an enemy and whatnot just because we both have different ship/s because you will always be the Yoona to my Juhyun. Lots of love!

Olive  – I’m pretty sure we had our first talk around February and around March 11 2013, you caught me tweeting about that fanfic. Hihi. You were my very first seohan friend and I can still remember the time when I first read your Opposites Attract – the very first seohan ff that I tried reading and tbh, it’s one of the reasons why I ship seohan. I’m so thankful that I’ve met someone like you. You’re very friendly, genuine and I also noticed you’re always the calmest among the shippers I’ve encountered (well, except when somebody provokes you, yes?). I like how we always share the same interests too, let me take seohyun as an example ;) I hope you’ll stay the same and always remember that I love you from the bottom of my heart, saeng!

Cheryl – To one of the talented seohan shippers I know. Cheryl bb, thank you so much for being one of the nicest and kindest dongsaengs I’ve ever had. Your manips have always helped me a lot whenever I needed prompts or whenever I feel like leaving the ship. Basically, you’re one of the reasons – also – as to why I’m shipping seohan today. Thank you for being a good stalker too, you’re too good at it that sometimes it surprises the hell out of me, but still I love you, alright? Always remember that I’m always here for you, okay? Love you!

Cam  – It all started in the FA facebook page and I can still remember the time when we talked a lot about our ships, some things weren’t that clear anymore for now but I always knew that you were one of the nicest shippers who talked to me first and welcomed me whole heartedly. You’re one of the reasons why the FAs are united and I’m really grateful that I’ve met someone like you who have been so brave enough at times when some other people prove us. You’ve always been sensible and funny! Always remember that I’m always here for you and also, let’s start shipping and not mind those immature people who loved to ruin our day, okay? I love you Cam!

Mary  – One of my fellow seomates and seohan shippers irl. The first time we met was totally different, no awkwardness and it was basically full of seohan and sehun, I could still remember you telling me that our height and age differences were like Xiumin and Sehun or Taeyeon and Seohyun. Thank you so much for keeping up with me every time we lost count with each other. Thank you so much for feeding my feels every time I feel like unstanning some idols and of course, thank you for always being a food buddy! But since you’re quite busy with your uni these days, I hope we could be able catch up with each other soon! I love you baby girl!

Aida & Jo unnie – Two people who love to enlighten me at times when I needed it. I’ve met you two in AFF and truthfully, my first impressions about you two were really different and I could just laugh about it every time I remember my impressions about you guys! I’m glad that I was able to meet you because without you, maybe I would’ve not met the other FAs who don’t have any twitter accounts at all. Thank you for being so ever supportive whenever I have plans on making a fanfic and I’m really thankful every time you leave comments because I totally do appreciate them a lot. To Aida, thank you for being oh so talented and please do continue what you’ve worked on and don’t lose hope especially when it’s about your ship, I know, I’ve been on that stage as well and I bet you’ll always feel like giving up at times when you’re lonely but keep in mind that you’re a special one :) To Jo unnie, thank you so much for guiding us and for being rational. You never get tired of reminding us and never get tired of sharing what you’ve learned and what you’ve been through in the fandom. I love you two!

Mina – Who would’ve ever thought that we could be this close, man? You’re talented, gorgeous and most of all, pleasantly easy to approach and to have a conversation with. At first I thought you were one of those authors who don’t really appreciate people’s comments and whatnot but then I realized that you’re way too different than those who I’ve encountered long ago. Thank you so much for being with me as well. I know we’ve met just recently but ngl, I’ve always been satisfied and happy every time I share some things to you. Thank you for being with me at times when I needed you – ranting, spazzing, ting, being happy together, being depressed together and most of all, for keeping up with my hobo luhan feels. Thank you and I love you so much, Mina bby!!! I will never get tired of talking to you, ranting with you, being awesome with you and of course, I will never get tired of being friends with you. Don’t you ever change, alright? And don’t forget that you’re the Regina to my Cady, the Blair to my Serena, the Naeun to my Chorong, the Lu Han to my Sehun slash Minseok, the Taeyeon to my Seohyun and of course, I will always be the Mi to your Mina. I love you, man! This is so cheesy, twin soul sister! <3

XH family – syao, jeannie, sai, jo, trixie, xez, andy, kelly, debs, jai, carry, sena, mai and everyone on line. Thank you so much for being with me. Ever since the day I came shipping xiuhan, I’ve always told myself that I will never have those awesome moments because it’s too rare especially when it’s concerts and especially when they’re in china, but because of you guys, you made me feel stronger than I’ve always thought. You guys actually taught me to anchor myself and to always keep the faith. I could still remember the day when we only have fanaccounts about their off cam moments but never had the best on cam moments in our whole life but I bet 2013’s been our year and I’m also thankful that the king minseok finally noticed his one and only die-hard fan, loljk! Thank you so much for keeping up with me and for being the understanding unnies and dongsaengs I could ever have!

And lastly, to my FA family – special mention to the people whom I’ve known for quite some time now, Karen, Anne, Bae, Bianca, AZ, Ana, Lynn, Eira unnie, Mers, Trisha, Richa, Janine, Kim, Lea, Kwa, Emerald, Pim, Anita, Wigmar, Charnelle, Nasuha, Maris, Jen, Hajar, Dae, Telly and to every FA who’s reading my blog right now plus to the people who I’ve forgotten their names, I’m really bad at this, sorry. (guys, let’s talk and let me know your names so that I could thank you personally) – Thank you, thank you, thank you! We’re all in this together! I’m glad that I’m surrounded by you guys and I’m proud that I’m part of the family. I’m happy that the FA that I’ve met/talked to are the ones who pretty much sensible and mature. You guys have always been my strength and I love you guys so much! I hope we’ll always ship our ships peacefully. I’m grateful to have you and to be a part of this family. I love you guys to the moon and back!

xx Mi

I love you all so much <365

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND THANK YOU!