Hello Lee Jinki-ssi!

I have the crappiest greeting ever.

I don’t really know why I’m getting emotional while writing this. Maybe because I am listening to your voice right now. It has always been so beautiful, and time after time, it gets better and better. The first time I heard you sing, I remembered having chills down to my spine because of your voice. It has a soothing effect on me, and I swear it will never change. Or maybe because I miss you.

I miss you oppa. I admit I am not a full-time Shawol; I have multi fandoms to die for. I’ve been into other groups lately. I am guilty beyond reasonable doubt. But for the record, never did I stop loving you. I feel very proud whenever you come back with superb performances and whenever you win awards. I feel affected when rumors about you comes out. I feel bad when you get injured and feel sad when people keeps on bashing you. You’ve always been a part of me, one that I can never leave nor abandon. I basically grew up being in this fandom that no matter how hard I try to get away, I can never do it.

Anyway, it’s December 14 again, your birthday. I pray that may you always be happy in what you do, and that may you chase your heart’s desires. You are a lovely person. You may not be the best-looking idol in your time, but I know you are a good person, a responsible leader, loving son and a caring hyung. You deserve all the best things in this world. Your shawols love you so so much, you have to remember that.

For years now, I’ve watched you and loved you from afar. I’ve seen you undergone many changes, physically and mentally. From the shy leader of a rookie group to the bravest and most hardworking leader of one of the best groups in this industry, you’ve been through a lot. Whenever you feel tired, or stressed out, feel free to pause for a while. Take care of yourself always. I may be miles away from you, but you have my heart. I will continue to support you and love you guys, especially you, our one and only dubu.

We shall meet someday. In the mean time, let me love you as much as I can.

Oppa, you’re my MVP.