Personality:
I am that reserved and introverted girl that you would often see in class or in the library, the wall-flower. I am a girl of not many words. I am someone that speaks only when spoken too, but when i do it is always straight to the point and nothing but the truth. I am never the type that sugar coats this is because i strongly believe that "the truth can only be the truth if said with all honesty", even if it hurts at times. To some my bluntness and distant personality give the impression of being cold and unfriendly.As my bestfriend Lee Eun Ji once said, "Yoojin is someone who can be as cold as a Siberian winter, but is actually a sentient soul on the inside." Only those who are brave enough to get to know me are given the privilege to see my true personality.
I am someone with a warm heart and strong sense of Empathy contrary to what other people see me as. I am highly sensitive to other peoples feelings and emotions, even without them knowing what they themselves feel. However, I seem to have the problem in understanding my own feelings and most especially in expression myself. This is why a lot of people misunderstand me, which lead to bullying in school. It started of when i was invited by the schools "Queen-ka" to join her group (See note below) my but refused since being in the popular crowed is just not my thing. She took my rejection badly and since then started to talk bad of me so the others would not befriend me - except for Eun Ji who was not swayed by her lies.
People in school see me as an easy target since I am not the type to not fight back and would just keep it all in -someone weak and easy to pick on. Contrary to their belief it is not because i am weak, It is because i don't want to make a big issue out of it and because I'm afraid for my father to find out about it. I fear that it will cause him to worry more. He might have me drop-out of school and have me home schooled once again. As you can see am also a "natural born worry-wart", most especially about my father finding out about my situation at school. I also tend to fuss about the littlest of things such as cleanliness. Some say - *cough* Eun Ji *cough*, that I have a serious case of OCD. Eun Ji once said to me, " You may look quiet and reserved, but in truth you really pack an earfull when you starts nagging. God it reminds me alot of my mom sometimes ... ke ke ke." You see... i dont think that I'm some who has OCD. I think i'm just someone who cant stand a messy environment.I just can't seem to function well in such a place.
I also have this "Boy Phobia", a fear of being around boys and interacting with them. This is due to my inexperience with dealing with people of the opposite gender (other that my father). When i am around boys specially those that i am unfamiliar with, I tend to be self-conscious soon what to do i try to close myself of. I may look calm and collected on the outside, but in truth i often have this mental freak-out on the inside especially when I am near boys (like "ottoke! ottoke! what do i do ?!!). In the end I seem like someone who is unapproachable and unfriendly. One time in the annuall school festival, ( It is a time when the school was opened for outsiders to enter) I was asked for ds by two boys who came to visit the school. I was so nervous in my mind i was already going into histerics, but I know i have to try. I put on a straight face tried so hard to look as normal and calm as I could, but failed misrably. I ended up looking like sutch a Snob. This is probably also a reason why boys are afraid to ask me out, and why i am labeled as " The Unattainable Ice Princess". However, even with my Phobia of the opposite gender I still long to experience what it is like to be with a guy. To have a boyfriend, go on dates and feel butterflies in my stomach.
(Note: Since she came from America and some said to have "a beauty that could rival the schools Queen-ka", Yoojin gained quite a popularity among the students when she first entered school. Hearing this the Queen-ka became threatened, so she thought that keeping Yoojin in her group would allow her to keep a close eye on Yoojin for her to beable to make sure that she remains on top.)
Likes:
+ The Library
( for some reason unknown, i find myself strangely attached to the library.
It is a place where i find myself at peace and relaxed. I often get this nostalgic feeling when i spend time there.)
+ Classical Music
( I love listening to classics, especially the sound of the Piano.
Like the library it gives me this nostalgic feeling when ever i here it .
However there is this one sound in particular that I'm looking for, but i cant seem to find it )
+ Animals
( My love for animals is also the reason why i am a vegetarian.
I cant seem to imagine myself eating meat that came from animals that have bin butchered.
I'd rather eat plants my whole life than do so.)
+ Books
( I specially love reading romance novels, because it gives me a glimpse of what it is like to fall in love)
+ Coffee : Cinnamon Dulce Latte
( coffee is like her drug, she cant seem to live a day without it )
Dislikes:
+ Getting interrupted when I'm reading
( I love reading books and what i hate being interrupted when I'm reading,
especially when I'm already at the best part of the story )
+ Being called "Princess"
( It is some sort of pun at school, since i seem to distance myself from others.
Like a "Snotty Ice princess". My bestfriend Eun Ji often use this to irritate me. )
+ Gossip
( I Hate it when people assume without even knowing the whole story.
People who judge you without even knowing you )
+ Animal Cruelty
( I hate seeing animals being taken advantage of. I have this great sense of protection towards them.
If I see animals being hurt, my personality changes from quite, distant and introverted to a strong willed and blunt individual.
These are some episodes where in i truly become "an Ice Princess")
+ Eating Meat
( Since I love animals, I see it as something barbaric)
Pet peeves:
+ Messy People
( I have this strong sense of OCD, and i cant seem to function well in a room full of mess.
Some say I'm like a strict ahjjumah when i tell them of because of their mess.)
+ Clicking of Pens
( I particularly hate this when i am deep in thought or concentration, it distracts my line of thought )
+ Metallic scratching sounds
( The sound makes me cringe )
Fears:
+ Not knowing what it is like to love
( As i've said, boys see me as someone who is unattainable and cold that is why they are afraid to get near me. At the same time I also have this "boy phobia" which hinders me from interacting well with boys. I fear that I will die and grow old without even experiencing what it is like to love and be in a relationship)
+ Boys
( Its not that I dislike them , its just that i am a bit reluctant to be around them because
i don't seem to know how to interact with people of the opposite gender)
+ Skinship/Close contact with Boys
( As i've said i find it hard to be around boys , and even more having skinship.
Even if its just an innocent/accidental brush of hand.- except my father that is.
But I do hope i would be able to over come this one day.)
Habits:
+ Spacing Out
( When i'm in deep thought i tend to get lost in my own world.
I also do this when I'm "talking to myself" or when i'm having a mental freak-out )
+ Having a blank face with Glaring
( I do this unconsciously when I'm in deep concentration, to some its seems like i'm irritated or angry)
+ Bushing
( I often get flustered and blush a lot when i am near someone i like - *cough* Xiumin *cough,
most especially when they are very very close - like when theirs only a few inches away. Note: It is a Habit that started after I became conscious of my feelings for Xiumin)
Hobbies:
+ Day Dreaming
( Mostly about romance, and meeting the "one destined for me". )
+ Listening to Music or Reading a Book
Style: Casual Chic
Trivia:
+ Food: Cinnamon rolls & Anything sweet
( Contrary to my seaminglly cold exterior , I actually love eating sweets )
+ Drink: Coffee
+ Color : Rose & Light Blue
+ Flower : Carnation
+ Music : Classical - Piano
+ Song : "River Flows In You" & "Kiss the Rain"
+ Artist : Yiruma
( His music is able to touch my hear, its like i'm listening to a story being told when ever i hear his music )
+ Ideal Type : Someone who has Childlike features, yet is also Mature and Playful
+ Has a Boy Phobia
Background:
I was a very cheerful and outgoing young girl when i was young. Someone who does not seem to ran out of things to say and stories to tell. And because of my outgoing personality, i also have a lot of friends. One of those is Kim Minseok, a young boy who is years older that i. I first met him in the library, playing a beautiful music with a piano in the music room adjacent to the library where i am a regular visitor. He particularly reserved and introverted, but we get along well even if we're opposites. We would often meet after school, and i would often listen to him play music.
I lived a pretty carefree and normal life like most kids my age. However all of that changed on one faithful day. At the age of 7 , i was involved in a car accident which cause me my mothers life and as well as my memory prior to the accident - including the boy i've met in the library. I was severely affected by what happed and caused me great trauma. I would often have series of panic attacks and head aches when i try to remember my past. Because of this my father decided to send me to the states to receive rehabilitation.
It took years for me recover and to get over the trauma . After 6 years of living in America, I then returned to Korea after receiving rehabilitation and adjusting to a normal life. However, their are still some memories of mine that have not been recovered even today. Whenever i try to remember parts of my past i get these severe head aches that some times result to fainting. Because of this my father have been very protective of me, and had me home schooled for a long time. However, having grew tired of living a sheltered life i negotiated with my father to send me to school. He agreed after long persuasion, that is in one condition I am to study in an all girls boarding school. Though it seems the same as having kept at home, i've decided to accept it. As i've said " Its far better than having to live my days alone at home than having to live my days in school with others around me, even if its a boarding school."
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