Every minute of the day, there is at least one person out there, who has or is commited/commiting suicide. Every day, there is one person who is taking their life, for God knows what. And it could be people we know in real life, or people over the internet. We all have our bad days, bad moments, bad times in life where we think it's the end of our lives. You think there is absolutely nothing and nobody that could save you.

If there are any of you who are suffering from depression or having issues, please please please speak to me. I will listen, I will give advice if you want it. I will be here. 

I have been hearing about cases of suicide in the kpop fandom, and not only in the fandom. It's happening everywhere, all over the world. And it's so devastating to hear that people take their own lives because they think they are not worthy enough to breathe, to even live their life as themselves. And when they do, they get criticized, made fun of, and put down because they aren't the same as everyone else.

If you are reading this, and even if you are not suffering, I want to tell you that you are defitnitely worth it. You deserve to be living, you deserve to be breathing, to be living your dream, to follow your heart. I know you may be hurting so much, and you think it'd be easier if you were gone... But it would not be easy on those who love you. Who adore you, who look up to you. Even if you are young, there can be people who look up to you. Nothing is impossible.

You don't deserve this pain. I know. I understand.

But those of us who are suffering in silence, have to realize one thing in life: We were given this gift of life by God, because He knew we were strong enough to fight it. Life has its bumps in the road, and we can't take it negatively all the time. We have to take those things and turn it into something that makes us stronger. Because it really can. It can build your trust, your strength, your will, and your wisdom. Yes, it will most defitnitely be hard, but you have to hold on and keep trying. You really have to try. You can't sit around and complain about how terrible your life is, and how miserable you are, if you are not doing anything about it to change it. 

I did that. For the past three years. And it got me nowhere. I am now older, and I understand that I must stand up and do something about my life to make myself happier. I cannot depend on others to make me happy and keep me that way. I have to depend on myself, and trust myself enough to make the right decisions in life. 

To love someone, you have to love yourself first. ALWAYS. Always put yourself first, and as selfish as it sounds, you have to do it. Because if you don't love yourself first, and put all the hidden love you built up into someone, and if that someone leaves, you will be crushed. If that person leaves, sure you may be sad, but you would still have yourself to put yourself back together. 

You are not alone. Trust me. There is someone out there who loves you, if not now, later. You have to keep living your life as freely as you want. You have to keep fighting. Please. So put down the pills. The gun. The rope--Everything. Throw it away, or put it away. You would crush me and everyone else. Although it may seem like no one cares, there is someone, trust me. You're just probably pushing everyone away, and letting those voices inside your head convincing you that there isn't. But there is, I guarentee you.

There is an end to this. There's always light at the end of a tunnel. We need darkness in order to have the pretty stars at night. We need to have pain and agony in our lives in order for us to become a better person, and learn more. It will hurt and be terrible in the beginning, but it will be so worth it in the end, I promise you. If I can pull myself together after repetitive times of attempting suicide, you can too. You can recover. You can be happy again. We all know it. You just have to try to push away all those negative thoughts, and open up and tell someone you need help. You have to gain confidence in yourself.

If you can't, just fake it. Eventually, if every morning you say you love yourself, and that you're a good person, and you're beautiful, you will start to believe it. And everything would be so much easier. A simple way to happiness is to always think on the bright side and never compare yourself to others. Although we are not perfect, we have to learn to love the flaws of ourselves. Because if you love yourself, someone eventually will too.

Someone loves you too much for you to be gone. It's not an answer nor is it a solution. Please trust me on this. You are worth everything. You deserve the best in life.

Stay strong not only for those around you, but for yourself as well. And remember to always smile. Even the most darkest can smile.

VisionOfPerfection ♡