Depressed...

Tomorrow's my 19th birthday, and it just reminds me how stuck I feel. I'm stuck in my parents' house and we don't get along. I'm stuck in a dead-end McDonald's job where I work my off and deal with terrible people for nothing. My friends and my girlfriend make me happy while I'm with them... But when I wake up early in the morning and I know I have a nine hour shift, and I'm exhausted, and I'm gonna have 7+ hour shifts 6 days a week most weeks... Ugh. I'm going on vacation soon. I hope that refreshes me. But I'm scared I'm gonna end up 20 and still living in my parents' house! I'm scared I'll never be able to drive. I'm scared I won't be able to save enough money to support myself if I move out. I'm scared that im not smart enough to go through school and get the job I think I want... I'm just gonna be another unhappy person contributing nothing to the world. And it's all the inspiration for writing out of me... One of the few things that gives me joy, it's taken.
Back to Top ↑

Comments

You must be logged in to comment
MsAnjel #1
I wish I could say the typical "it's going to be okay" without sounding cliched but.. It's going to be better. It may not be in the next second, minute, hour, day, week, month or year. But think of it this way:

You have a roof over your head
You have clothes on your back
You may not like your parents but they gave you life
It may not be much of a life to boast about but it's more than what many have.

I know I make it sound easy and as if it's all picnic and ponies but it's just the now. You never know what your future has in store because it isn't written it. Your life is still marinating and cooking in this thing we call existing. So, give it a few more years - doing something just a little bit different with each moment passing. Whether its wearing something you didn't wear yesterday or you styled your hair different or you said good morning to your parents as you rush out of the house.

Live your life in the now as if tomorrow may never come. You'll find that life isn't as bad as it sounds, seems, feels like. It's actually the opposite.

It's quite.. beautiful. In its own weird, hard, crazy way.

Stay strong. Take one step forward each day. You don't have to do more than a step. Just don't take one back, okay?

I've personally followed all your stories and anyone who can write as beautiful a story as you, you can find beauty in anything. Just reach out and take a step in any direction. It's a lot better than the current step you're stuck in.

- Anjel
iAmDrSeuss #2
Hello hello I know it's late but Happy Birthday!!!! :)
Kick back during your vacation and clear your mind! Maybe when you come back, things won't seem as bad as they were before! Be positive! I'm sure you'll work everything out in time :)
Good luck, Happy Birthday once again and I hope you have a lovely vacation!
Depression2412 #3
Cheer up and happy birthday!
BE HAPPYYYYY
Kai-otic88 #4
Don't think that way. You will be smart enough to support yourself you just need to try a bit harder. You can do it. I believe in you. I'm sure we all do^^. When you go on vacation that'll give you time to relax and forget about the stress.

Happy birthday^^
YulsicTaenyOTP #5
Hey! It's just afew more minutes away! People always say on your birthday u will get lucky~ so be happy! I'm sure u can think of something when your 20 be it work or studies~ maybe u can go some other places and work instead of macdonalds?
Back to Top ↑