This isn't a blog this time. Today, this is an advice status. But…this is me asking for your help! You see, as a freshman girl I should start a relationship sooner or later. And today, it's forever!!

During my elementary years, I used to like this guy from my 2nd and 3rd grade classes and he's blonde and tall. We were best friends but then, he moved... :( later in 5th grade, I liked three guys. Two of them are cute but short...not my taste anymore. The other is a super genius that he made all 4's on the EOGs. He is the same of my race sort of but he like someone else that has the same name as mine. He moved to another school and I become lonely as ever.

In my middle school years, the boy from my 2nd and 3rd grade returned to my life. He's…changed. I mean when I was surprised to see him he became big. He also cursed in which I started cursing later on. He mumbles where I can't hear his words and it makes me mistaken that he was insulting me and I became the number one bully in the school yet never been caught. He's been a big influence to me the next two years of middle school that I stopped beating him and we came to becoming distant friends that hugged some time. One time during a tornado warning, we hugged so many times to comfort ourselves and freakin out we are gonna die! Later on, I had another crush on this guy I picked on also. He was blonde and he's a good size for a guy. He did date my friend in which I hated that not because he dated my friend but I just only hate him. Later on I developed feelings for him since he's been nicer to me even though I picked on him and he did drawings for me. He is a somewhat Artist like me. Once he hugged me near the end of school year where my friend broke up with him. I still don't know if they're in a relationship or not. It's hard to tell. He moved to somewhere and we promised to stay in chat on Facebook.

Two summer years ago, I had to go to a birthday party for one of my relatives in the city lake park and met this guy my race. But he wasn't exactly handsome. But he is a year older than me and he did say he liked me. That was the only guy that ever confessed to me their feelings. It was too emotional and so sudden that I stopped texting him back for more than two years and I think he's been sulking. Now, I've been thinking and I now have feelings for him again. But there are conditions. 1) I lost his phone number. 2) he probably doesn't want to talk to me after how long and he'll be like why you talking to me now.

Why is it that the guys I met always fell down when I am in need of a relationship? Now, the guy that I hugged several times in the tornado goes to my high school now and I stopped falling in love with him. He even stopped coming or just disappeared like that!!

This is my question(s): What's it gonna take to get the right guy, at the right time? Should I go back to beg for the other guys I had crushes on or didn't? Leave comments and give me some advices. Anything in your own opinion; critical or not.