this will be really long. 

November 13, 2013
06:55 GMT + 8

Hey, this is Jazmin. Thanks for clicking by, thank you alot. You really mean to me, thanks. Yep, I'm leaving aff now. It's been 5 months when I arrive here. 5 months surviving and understanding English persons around here. 5 months designing and serving people. But when the 5th month came, it really became, worse. I lost my PS, my writing life, my social life around here. In just one blink, all of them were gone. I just really don't know what to do, Im lost. The previous sentence is my status, if you ever visited my account and really care for me. First of all, I would like to say sorry for the aff designers around here, specially the shops they own that I had applied with, and didn't really give a help to them. I apply shops only because I want to help them. Having a shop is really hard, especially if you have requesters that are really rushing you, telling you, "Hey, I'm ***** the one who requested last week on your shop. Can I know how long will you take to finish my request?" . Rushing you in an indirect way. Im really sorry, I can't even mention the designers who I'm really sorry with but, if there is any thing that I can do for you to forgive me, I would be desperate to do it. 

Second, for my requesters. At my personal graphic shop. I put it on draft status, but before doing that, I posted a sorry message. It was quite long but, yes, I was stupid because after posting it I immediately put the shop on drafts. Im really sorry.

Third. For all of the staffs of Floristry. Thanks for the 1 month. Thank you for helping, you guys are good! Improve your graphic more, I know you can help more people around here. Be strong and always be careful everyday!

Fourth. For all of my friends around aff. I can't mention you because I really don't know if you really think treat me as your friend. But guys, you are good too. Thanks for the answers whenever I ask you. Thank you for giving your time whenever I have requests with you. Thank you for all! God Bless Each Of You.

Fifth. This is a special mention to my, Unnie/Bestfriend/Boss/ sjadnwdknwjfwj OKAY NO. Palama unnie. I'm really sorry for being careless on our resource thread. I'm sorry too because I didn't focus on it. June 6, 2013. I posted a blog post about my status that I am available and willing to apply on a shop. She dropped a comment together with the link of Shattered Sanity Designs. And obviously, I accepted it. I worked for her about 3 months. The shop was really active and we accept many positive comments about the shop. And we really all know that one positive comment of a requester about the shop really boost our energy and stands as an inspiration on designing. Without them, we have no energy on making posters. So back to the topic. 3 months, Duo Resource Shop was built. And yes! We accept many comments, and the thread was active and everyday updating. But now, maybe because of my carelessness, it was no longer active.. It was my fault after all. I left her, I didn't helped her. But thank you still, because you really still care about me. Palama unnie was the very best unnie I ever met. She was not that cold-type of person, not like the others. Cheerful and hardworking. I can say that she is the best person around here. Thank you too, because you hired a such worthless person like me. Unnie, I will miss you. I will miss the times we talk about the we are reffering to always. I will miss the times we plan so many things for the threads we hold. I will miss the times were I was laughing at you. For just a simple joke, it makes me laugh. And especially, I will miss the Palama that I used to bond with. I will miss the actual Palama, not only online but also in real life. Even if we are far from each other, aff makes us near and we're just like talking infront of each other! But yep, all things have a their own finish lines, meaning all things here in the world ends. Thank you for the 6 months. I will treasure the moments we had. I will never forget you, because you're already part of my life. And don't worry about me, Im okay here in my country. However, after the strong storm Yolanda, there's a new storm is arriving our country again. I will be okay, please don't worry about me. I'll be okay, I hope you too. God Bless unnie, I love you. 

Yep. That's all, thanks for everything. Thank you for all. I wish each of you will be good, and wish you all the best!
Am I coming back? No, i will not. 
Am I deactivating? No.

And my karma? I will donate it to some contests around here. So that it won't be worthless.

so long and goodbye.
Jazmin/-nikkievol.

please don't ask the reason why am i leaving, it's private.