So yesterday 3 years passed since 10.11.2010.

3 years passed since my grandfather died.. in one of the worst way a person can die..

6.11.2010 - Saturday morning, was the last time I saw him.

9.11.2010 - thursday evening, I'm getting a phone call and passed in to my mom who was in bed already. 10 minutes later she is telling us she needs to go.

10.11.2010 - Wednesday morning, my dad woke me up by phone call and telling me my grandfather is not feeling well and that mom is with him in the hospital and that I need to go alone to school.

the 2 first classes I was with my phone, massaging my mom and hiding the phone from the teacher, she texted me "he has interal bleeding in the brain"

and I knew what she meant. 

/long time before that, I think 5 years before that, I read on the newspaper that a pilot crashed because he got . and it said what meant. I cried when I read it and wished nobody, not even my enemies will have that/

that is what she meant.

I asked her "?"

"yes, how did you know?"

I did not answer that text.

I stared crying and asked the teacher if I could go out and she said yes.

I went to the library and searched online to see what it meant, even though I knew. I just wanted to be wrong.

but I wasn't..

I texted my mom to tell him that I love him.

all the day I just cried in my seat and my classmates asked what's wrong..

I think around 7 pm, when I was on the computer in my room my dad called me.

I can't anderstand how people can tell other people what's happened, I mean.. how can you tell someone that someone so close is now.. gone..?

just gone..?

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If nobody that was closed to you died, you're lucky. really lucky. I'm only 16 and 4 close people died..

if it never happened to you, you don't really know what "gone" means, but again, you're lucky.

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you can not be prepared to this .. but just.. let people know how important they are to you, and don't never ever forget to tell them goodbye.

don't forget that, if I could teach you one thing this is it. learn from my mistakes.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=74S7EMUAKFs