The 9th of each month is a day that is incredibly meaningful to me. It's a day that will never be erased from my memory. The time leading up to the 9th of each month drives me to even more immense depths of creative insanity and frustration. It's a personal grieving period for myself, and I find it difficult to concentrate on anything else. It's part of the reason why I haven't updated in a while. 

 

My mother and close friends know that about the day, and so are more forgiving when I lash out more than usual. I usually stay at home all day on the 9th to think and reflect, but yesterday I had 3 engagements. I could either a) go to one of my best friend's house party as pre-lash for fireworks night in the countryside, b) go to one of my friend's 21st dinner in the city or c) go to a K-Pop concert. Option C was out of the question. I'm taking a break from K-Pop right now. That's another part of the reason I haven't written. I was torn between A and B. There was also option D - stay at home and mope as per usual. I was a little tempted, but as I knew I would, I went to my friend's 21st and brought maknae with me. It was fun, and I'm glad I went. No offence to the other options.

 

I didn't want this post to get depressing, but I thought I should at least explain my lack of activity. Anyway, that's not the point here.

 

Yesterday when I was outside the restaurant waiting for maknae, I see maknae swaggering along in an army style puffer jacket and ripped jeans, with a grey hoodie and crimson slogan tee underneath and a navy beanie on top looking all GD out of bad boy, and I look down at all my overkill Chrome Hearts rings, my Chrome Hearts chain, my Chrome Hearts earrings, black fur coat and realise I look like and about as subtle as Seungri in Let's Talk About Love.

 

"maknae why the do you look so GD tonight"

 

"HEY HYONGS WE SWITCHED ROLES"

 

"WTF ME AS MAKNAE AND YOU AS HYUNG?! LIKE HELL WE WOULD!!!! NO GTFO BISH URGHGHGFHHGGHH"

 

"HEY HYONGS LET'S BE A COUPLE I'LL BE THE GUY AND YOU BE THE GIRL"

 

"WTF?!?!?! NO!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!"

 

"BUT YOU'RE SHORTER"

 

"NO STFU"

 

Well, anyway, when we got home, maknae gave me some mock Japanese...Korean...knock off Pocky...what...

 

Er. I don't know. But anyway, carrying on.

 

Maknae pulled it out of the rucksack and presented it to me, saying it was Korean pocky or some . I was about to refuse because I'd told maknae earlier I don't like sweet things cus I'm a cold-hearted so cool Asian douchebag like that, but then maknae smiled at me and screeched,

 

"HAPPY 9TH, HYONG!!!!!!!!!"

 

Maknae knows everything about me, but I'd thought maknae had forgotten just how seriously I take this day because when we'd texted about it a few days before, maknae hadn't appeared to remember much about it. So seeing maknae's face lit up by the porch light brightly grinning at me, I felt so touched that I just didn't have the heart to refuse. So now I have two boxes of 'Pepero' in my room that will probably be opened to try just once, spit it out in distaste, and then be left there for the rest of eternity. 

 

Urgh. I'm getting too soft nowadays.

 

maknae's too bad for me and sweet like candy~ ♥ *vomits*