Sorry, I just need to let this out since I've got into a depression lately

And it's about a friend

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Sorry, but I'm totally missing you

It's a lie if I said that the way you turn your backs on me didn't hurt me

Maybe I act as if I'm okay but actually I'm not

When they ask if I'm okay, I told them I'm fine and I'm happy that you leave

But truthfully

I still need you 

Sometimes I wonder

Don't you miss me?

Don't you remember those glory time when we had fun together

Go to cinemas, to parks

And telling you my problems that I had kept since I was little?

You are the person who tell me to stop giving up

And you cheer my life

I feel happy everytime you did that

I'm not as tough as now if you were not there

If we were never friends

Maybe I'll do some sort of stupid things again

Just to release my sadness

For others, I'm weird

For you, I'm special

To them, I'm ugly

But you make me feel pretty

Although we are in a state of breaking up

And we avoid each other now

We pretend to be happy with our own acquaintances now

I just wanna let you know

I feel lonely each day without you dirty jokes and gossip

I feel fat everyday because nobody tell me that being chubby is a part of beauty

To be honest,

I miss you

And I need you

You won't be reading this, but I just wanna tell you how much I miss you

And love you, and it will never change

"I’d watch the TV like nothing happened
and comfortably sleep at
an early evening time
For me to not get surprised
at these sides of me
Oh I need you"

Be happy with her, and I will always cheer for you although I pretend to hate you

I just hoping that we can get closer again

Sorry, and I miss you