Sooo I just started into a new school and it's been about even weeks now.

My elective is choir.... But I really feel like quitting choir...

i only join cause I thought that I could be in a community of people who ALL get along cause they have a thing in common.

I guess not... 

It feels pretty crappy... Like... My style of reading things is different, I've never been in a real choir with all the training and stuff... But I thought there was more to it than this...

i feel like I'm forcing myself to feel happy and constantly putting up a fake smile cause I can't find a way to put up a real one at the right time.

Hell I feel like quitting school cause I feel uncomfortable with everything.... 

But I can't cause I need the credits and the education.

Ive found no one I feel really comfortable with at this new place filled with not new people.

Theres no one really to talk to... And there's always someone to put me down when I say something...

i can't just freely be stupid and get away with it without bein corrected

I didnt really think this was going to happen....

other people would say how their 2nd/middle/ lower school was hell to hem and their "high school"/3rd school would be heaven.

But right now it feels just the opposite... 

I don't know if it's because it's a beginning phase or just something hat will past.

But I hope it passes soon.... I'm really starting to doubt myself.

This isn't very nice... I'm waiting for the school days to end just so I don't have to feel so lonely through hour long classes es lunch times.