At my chingu's recommendation, we went to a place to eat some delicious pancakes and that was when i saw him again and he was staring at me once more.

That moment i felt smt that i did not know or recognise and i kept going back there to see him with chingus almost daily as he works there and they teased me saying it was a coffeshop romance.

With all the fics and stories i hear about love, i never expected mine to turn out like this and because of my brave and couragous friend, i gotten his number and from that day on we have been in a relationship.

He send me to school twice, as he lives at the block beside me and we message and call each other and we blossomed into a week long relationship.. Now we just passed our one week mark but i realised something... its not love between us.. and i have never loved him in the first place.

The feeling i had in the beganing was one of oh-i-met-someone-i-saw-before kind and then i realised why i was not emotional or feeling all mushy at his words and messages.. it was because i did not love him.

I told my friends and they all gave me different answers from pretend to be lesbian so he would break up with you to just break up with him before the O level exams or after it if you still dont love him.

Its been three days since i lied to him. i told him i had a bad case of sore throat and so i could not talk to him and only smsed him. i want to stop this because i feel horrible for lying and everything but he knows where i live and im scared that if i break up with him he would harrass my family and everything especially i dont want my family to know i am or was in a relationship....

Im losing sleep because of this... i cant concentrate on studying or revising. i am getting so stressed out that i barely have time to update my fics and everything.

I need help... please can anyone tell me what to do?? before i lose my sanity??. i need help...