Hey yo, I actually have to type a blog, I'm in the mood. But I couldn't think of a reason to make one. You've all heard I'm ill... blah blah blah... It's gotten boring now. If you wanna know, I'm going for CBT. I'll leave it at that. So, now, whilst I'm typing I'm cooking up an idea of what I want to rant/talk/argue... or whatever- about. It's weird that I'm putting my thoughts straight into this, oooh, I'm so weird.

Okay, thought of one.

This blog post is hereby titled:

DREAMS OF A TROLL~

As you're all well aware, I'm a seventeen year old douchebag. I love writing fanfics, and I actually have multiple accounts. Everytime I try a new type of story, e.g. angst, , horror, fluff etcetc, I used to make a new account. In total, I've made three that I frequently use. One contains a 7-chaptered story of betrayal in relationships (that seems to be my thing, break-ups and controversy...), one contains stories dedicated to , and then there's this one- with everything. I'm thinking of transferring everything to this account but then again, I don't want to blend the different accounts. I'll feel weird about it. This is my newest account, but the other two served their purpose well and, well, they still do. I don't know why I've still got them, but it just feels right, so, until I'm ready to reveal everything, those accounts are going to stay hidden and locked away safely. Maybe someone clever may notice the same writing style- but it'll be pretty hard. I'm an average writer and there are many average typers on here- thousands in fact, and the account names are in no way similar at all. I guess.... I'm ultimately a troll. I love this account the most- I've met the nicest people and you're all so sweet. I haven't revealed anything else on the other accounts at all... It's just, this account feels right to me. It all began as a rant of how much I hate some of the highest voted stories- some of them really and I'm not saying that in a jealous way either. Some of them really and I'm not gonna go around naming names.

Anyway this is supposed to be about my dreams, so, here. I dreamed a dream to become one of the best authors on AFF. I've always had strong, complicated, good, fresh ideas but I can never seem to finish ANY story to it's great standard. For example, "How To Catch Sehun in 10 Days" is a story nearing the ending very soon, and now I'm lacking the drive to finish it. Even on my other accounts I haven't finished a single story. In that way I'm a bit of a troll. "Answers" I'm proud of- because I've actually finished it! Who would have knew I could do it? I know my siblings didn't. So, from this, I aim to become a more mature, great, mesmerising author who  appeals to everyone on AFF no matter the age or favourite genre. Sounds like a hard thing to do, right? I like challenges and I aim to accomplish them. Maybe then I'll feel able to make a full novel that I'll turn into a book and sell it all over the world- but obviously I need to start somewhere. Hence I'm here! I've just noticed I use dashes far too much man. I need to stop this nonsense, right? Anyway, yes, I want to become a much better author. I feel less than average to be honest. I have plenty of dry parts that could do with jazzing up and then there's parts of my writing that drag and don't make perfect sense. I drive for perfection in my writing.

In college, last year, I took Maths, Chemistry, Human Biology and Psychology as well as a Teaching Assistant qualification and General Studies. I passed them all (even I was super surprised) and, cutting the long story short, I made the hard decision to drop Human Biology and Maths (Maths was the subject I was going to drop anyway- the teachers S.U.C.K). I've kept Psychology and Chemistry... and now I'm redoing a year with English Language and English Literature. I'm dedicated to making fictions and just plainly being a writer. It's going to be fun yayayayay xD It's going alright.

The scary part is... I'm going to university next year. I'm going to be 18 next year. I'm going to be a driver, with a job, doing university... oooh lala. I've actually never even had a boyfriend (my siblings will disagree. Technically I did have a boyfriend but he's not a boyfriend- this is a story for another time- lol there I go with the dashes again...), so I aim to get one in university. Goddamn, being a hopeless romantic means I have high-but-realistic standards. I hope someone will liketh meh.....(this is a stupid statement actually. I'm not being funny but 3 people have admitted to liking me... one directly to me, two not me but my friend/sister)

Anyway, I wanna know about you guys. What are your dreams?