Hello there people who care enough to read this, been a long time ne

so ... 

the thing is that I have many things to say but right now I am so stuck in what I have in my hand that I am sick of it! 

lately I am into a mixutre of emotions, emotions that i normally don't share with people who actually live with me in real life, because they will not understand it, but still I try to cope with it. 

I am scared! this is the most feeling I can really identify these days, in less than a month I will have to go through an eyes surgery that i am not sure that it will work will or not, I might end up blind as far as I know but it is a chance I decided to take! 

it is the only way to make my mother feel less burdened about my eye sight , or my eye health care. 

but I am scared, next thing I feel is totally ugly , i am not sure why I feel this way specially after I hear people compliment me or my outfits or how I act , I always end up feeling ugly with lots of doubts , and been feeling that way for a while nowadays . 

.... 

I dunno what else to write now because I kinda want to forget about it, but here I am talking to you.... 

so let's just go by the flow and wish you all a great night, day what ever time you have now 

love 

Ryanna