I don't really hate my parents. In fact, I love them very much. But sommetimes I just wished that they wouldn't bring down my mood whenever I spazz in front of them.

Earlier this day, I was re-watching EXO's rendition of Open Arms on A Song For You without my earphones on. My parents weren't really home so I had no problem with playing it on full volume. But a few seconds into the song, my parents arrived and so naturally, I got up to greet them. After greeting them, I went back to my seat on the couch. My parents sat in the living room and watched the news so I got up and went to my room.

My parents aren't exactly fond of KPOP. They think it's noise. A bunch of nonesense words with a beat the sound the same as all other pop songs. I didn't take any offense to this since it was their opinion and as long as I was happy, I'm okay.

But while I was listening to Open Arms, I got up and let my sister listen to the song since she likes EXO too (my fault XD). I raised the volume a bit so she could hear better. Now, my parents are HUGE fans of Journey, the original singer of Open Arms, especially my dad. Hearing the song, my mom asked me who was singing. Naturally, I answered her "EXO." And spazzed a bit. Unconciously, I thought out loud, "I wish EXO performed this at KCON." Hearing my statement, my mom reacted. 

"KCON again? That's bordering on obsesseiveness now Riean." and then my dad added, "All you talk abou is KPOP this, KPOP that. Why don't you just stop going to school and just go to KCON and listen to your KPOP?" 

I was shocked. Not shocked that they said this since they tell me things that are similar to this on a daily basis, but I was shocked that their statement just came out of nowhere. Especially when I was so happy because EXO did a good job on covering Open Arms. They were so harsh that I stopped playing the video and had to control myself to not cry in front of them. Choking up my tears, I excused my self and went back to my room.

With this recent event, I realized that I should not spazz about KPOP in front of my parents anymore. I shouldn't even talk about KPOP when they're in hearing range. I'm just so tired of hearing these things from my parents. And they usually do it when I'm so high from being happy whenever I see updates or watch KPOP videos, and when they do it, it brings my mood down.

My parents don't really hate KPOP. They just think it's noisy since they can't understand the words. They often make fun of the words too. They also don't support my love for KPOP nor do they discourage it since it's my life.

For KCON this year, I was the one who had to find ways just so I could go since my parents said that they wouldn't spend any money on me for KCON. So I had to ask my grandmother in secret and she gladly gave me money for tickets and food. My step grandmother also gave me money to be able to buy KPOP merch there. 

Conclusion: Stop spazzing in front of parents. It will just bring me hurt and make me angry at them. And I don't  ever want to be angry at my parents because they have done so much for me. They just don't exactly approve of my preferences.