and do you ever find yourself
staring up at the ceiling or
at your walls with posters of your fav groups pasted on and
you look at your phone with your stash for 1000 plus pics
and you just wonder what am I doing?
why am I this in love, to the point of near obsession, with a bunch of korean boys who aren't even remotely related to me,
they even speak a different language,
they are from a different culture,
they live an ocean away from me
why am I living a life that is so dedicated to them
its scary isnt it when you realize that really your entire life is well,
them
like your life pretty much consists of school, food, work then tumblr, twitter, aff.
and you know this is probably a fad and you should probably stop treating them like your life cos they obviously are not and you know that and there are actually times when you can feel yourself drifting away but somehow you just can never completely drift away
and then you feel dumb for being so melodramatic over such a stupid thing
and deep down you know you will probably regret all this wasted time over a bunch of korean guys
but
then
you just can't quit?
and you feel embarrassed when your phone lights up in public and your wallpaper is a korean man but when you're alone at home or with close friends you just go crazy over that same korean man?
when there are times that you feel like you like him so much your entire life is revolving around him
and times when you feel stupid for doing so
because you know that he ISN'T your entire life and shouldn't be your entire life cos if that's really case you should probably be well on your way to the psychiatrist's office
and then you realise for the what 100th time that wow girl you really have no life and
you try to change but somehow you just end up going back to twitter, aff and tumblr all the same.
but still