IM SOOO SAD.... D':

EVERYDAY SINCE AFTER MY BIRTHDAY I'VE BEEN CRYING.  I DON'T WANT TO SHARE ANY OF MY PERSONAL PROBLEMS BUT IM REALLY SAD NOW!! I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO TALK TO AND SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS.... IM ANGRY AT THIS GIRL RIGHT NOW LIKE REALLY...REALLY ANGRY CAUSE SHE ASKED WHATS THE TEST ABOUT AND NOW SHE GOT THE HIGHEST MARKS IN HER CLASS AND FULL  BRAGS ABOUT IT. IM JUST SOO LONELY PLUS I BADLY WANT TO BECOME A TRAINEE AND BE BETTER AT DANCING.....BUT NO IM CRAP AT DANCING SIGH T.T................ I ALSO WANT TO BE GOOD AT SINGING WHICH I AND PIANO TOO...... PLUS I WANT TO GET TALLER  I TRIED MY BEST TO ACHIEVE THIS AND NOW IM BECOMING DUMB AND GETTING 80% ON MY TEST ALL THE TIME.... ARGGGHHHH I HATE MYSELF.... I KNOW PEOPLE CAN'T BE PERFECT BUT I JUST WANT TO FREAKING IMPROVE AND BELIEVE IN MYSLEF I DONT WANT SOMEONE CONTROLLING MY LIFE.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<

 

SORRY I JUST WANT TO LET IT OUT D:

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emo_hyuga15
#1
why hate yourself? nobody's perfect but we can all improve.
even though you're not the best, at least deep inside you, you know that you tried your hardest and never depended on anyone.
even though you're not as tall as you want to be, at least you're not one of those people who look down just because of their height.
you may not be the best person in the world but at least you act yourself. you don't pretend to anyone.
just believe in yourself and your abilities..:))
everyone is special in their own ways..
B2STHart #2
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TELL ME ALL ABOUT IT!!! if you want to, ily rue<3
Kawaiimashmallows
#3
@-ANGELA-ZHAN WOW.. THANK YOU HAVE GOOD POINTS.. TRUE I WOULD RATHER BE A PERSON, EVEN IF THEY'RE NOT PERFECT BUT HELPS PEOPLE AND TRY TO CHANGE THE WORLD RATHER THAN A PERFECT SUPER MODEL WHO JUST BRAGS ABOUT HERSELF.... WELL... A FRIEND OF MY IS SOOO CONTROLLING BECAUSE I CAN'T SPEAK FOR MYSLEF SHE BOSS ME AROUND. THANK YOU.. EVEN IF YOU'RE JUST A STRANGER I FEEL LIKE SOMEONE IS TALKING TO ME <3 :D
-Angela-Zhang-
#4
Hey; don't think so poorly about yourself ^^
So what if you're not as tall as you'd like to be? Does this make you less of a person?
Certainly not. ^^
Which would you rather be? The pretty, 5"8 super model who's good at everything, but is so full of herself that she never once notices the crippled old beggar on the side of the street, or someone who's maybe not so tall, not as pretty, not as "talented", but tkes notice and helps him find shelter, keeping him off of the street for one night?
It might seem more desirable to be the model, but I certainly have more respect for the "short girl". Which one makes a more positive imprint on the world? Finding only personal, but maybe superficial joy, or making a difference in someone's life, even just for one day?
Don't say you're bad at something- you might start off not as skilled, but you can always work towards your goals. Practice, more than ability is what matters. Taemin woud be just as "crap" at dancing as you feel you are, if he never practiced. Natural ability is only a small part of developing skill and mastering something.
80% is not a bad mark- if you feel you can do better, believe in yourself. What's controlling your life right now, based on this blog, is your not realizing your own worth, abilities and potential. You are in full control of this. Decide to believe in yourself, and you'll always have a support system that will not be shaken, regardless of others around you.
Hope I don't sound like I'm lecturing you ^^"
<3
Kawaiimashmallows
#5
@DRAGONG THANKS FOR INSPIRING ME... IM SUCH A PERFECTIONIST ESPECIALLY BEACAUSE WHEN I WAS LITTLE I WOULD ALWAYS GET 100 OR 90% IN MY TESTS.... I CAN'T ACCEPT MY OWN FLAWS AND I WANT TO TRY TO BE PERFECT AS WELL AND I EASILY GET JEALOUS TO THOSE PEOPLE THAT I THINK IS PERFECT.... AND MY PARENTS ESPECIALLY AREN'T HELPING ME AT ALL CAUSE I KEEP SECRETS ALL THE TIME.... I WISH THAT I CAN COPE ON THIS ....
DragonG
#6
sweetie, i'm going to tell you something. i don't know you, but i can completely sympathize. i have been dancing for 13 years and i . i've been singing for 10 and can't hold a note. i'm top of my class and this past year my grades are slipping. perfectionists like us will torture ourselves when we don't live up to our own standards. but you have to learn to control your emotions in a way that you can accept yourself for all your flaws and perfections. trust me, it's a learning process, because i myself am not good at it yet. just trust in acceptance ^^ i wish you luck
Kawaiimashmallows
#7
D: NAT YOUR JUST SAYING YOUR FAT BUT YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL IN YOUR OWN WAY..... YOU CAN'T LEARN HOW TO DANCE.. YOU NEED TO BE BORN WITH IT TOO...... PLUS I HAVE A LOT OF FAMILY PROBLEMS WHICH IS VERVERY SAD D:
Nataliette
#8
Ngaww.. i shall bash that girl up for you!! I hope its not me :/ LOL.

DUDE! I want to sing but i cant cos i got a really crap voice, and you can sing! You can learn how to dance but you cant learnt how to sing cos you need to be born with a beautiful voice!

I've been trying to grow taller too, but i grow fatter instead t.t

I want to be a trainee too, but my mum won't like that and its hard.

how do you think i feel? T^T
Kawaiimashmallows
#9
JB;JVBDV;V:V WAHHH...GET ALL HYPO.... WITH CAPS LOCK... LET IT OUT ON THIS COMPUTER I HOPE I DONT BREAK IT......
Comatose-Bunny #10
CAPS LOCK A LITTLE BIT MORE!!! >:/ GET THE SILLIES OUT!
Kawaiimashmallows
#11
TRUE... :D LOL MADE ME HAPPY A BIT...
Comatose-Bunny #12
CAPS LOCK, FTW! IT MAKES EVERYONE FEEL A LITTLE BETTER INSIDE. <3 FEEL GOOD?