Okay so here is ANOTHER rant. I ve been ranting a lot lately but you guys actually listen :') Alright so exactly one week from today I am going to KCON!!!!! I am so excited and super nervous. So I leave for Cali on Thursday gi to the pre party on Friday and Saturday begins the convention. Oh if you are going to kcon let me know cuz I really wanna meet some of you. Anyway, so Saturday is going to he so much fun. Me and my sister are going to do everything and my parents are gonna give us lots if money to spend so I'm super happy. No problem there right. Imma make some friends have a good time and pray that I don't run into sasaeng fans. Oh gosh how they scare me. So my problem us Sunday. On Sunday u have many problems. Number one. Idk if I should join the talent show. I can sing kind of good, but I get shy especially because I'm going to sing in another language. If I do sing idk whether to do baby don't cry by exo-k and sing well and mess up a little on the rap or sing angel by exo-m and know all of the words but feel stupid for singing an old song. But if I do good then you never know who could he listening and maybe just maybe SM would sing me. (Lol I have a very vivid imagination) so you guts can help me decide do I do it or not and what song. Okay so problem number two I have floor seats so I honestly don't know if I get to go to the meet and greet or not. But I don't care because um still going to be in the front row and watch my live perform live. Even if h was in the back u would still not care because I am in the same building as Luhan. So, if I don't get to meet him I know that he is going to see me in the crowd. I can feel it, and when he looks at me that is going to he the moment he falls in live. I know he won't be able to do much about it then, but he will remember me. Theniin the future when I actually meet him he will remember my face and we will start dating. There is going to he a lit of drama because of the fans but its okay because will get through it. And then he will propose after a whule, when he's on stage. And we will get married and have three little boys and a girl. So you see this day is very important to me. I know I sound crazy and a lit of people are Luhan biased so what makes me different from them why is he going to marry me? I ho estoy don't know why and I'm not different but he does choose me. And its not Luke I live him just because he's hot or famous but u lice everything about him the way he sleeps, talks, smiles, laughs, the cute face he makes ashen he's surprised the way he touches his heart when he's nervous. How he shamelessly dances a girl group song and pulls it off. Ibjust live everything about him. Hi estoy if I stare at a picture of him for more than a minute u start crying. Everytime I see him no matter if its a picture a video a poster my heart skips a heat and I get butterflies in my stomach. When I hear his voice I feel safe and get butterflies and sometimes I even cry just by listening to him. Everyone says the feely g will go away but I dont think it will. Its been exactly eight months and five days since I lived him and I still feel the same. I know you guys think I'm crazy, but I just needed to vent. So if you believe that I could marry Luhan let me know and if you think I'm totally nuts let me know. And help me decide the talent show thing please. Thank you guys for listening to my crazy rant, and thanks for always being there when I need to talk. I love alll of you guys. You guys have become my second family. Wow. I'm crying just writing this. Haha, oh tell me if my name sounds cute with his last name too. Paola Alejandra Lu <3 personally I love it!!!!!