August 9, 2013
6:21 PM

Dear my future boyfriend,

             Uhm, Hi! Err. I don't know what has gotten into me as to why I made this letter but yeah, maybe a lot of things has been bugging me a lot lately (mostly about relationships and all) that made me do this thing. Yeah, I know this is kinda lame and gay though, I just like to express what I feel when I get to have you someday..well, here goes nothing.

              To my future boyfriend, I don't know if you'll get to read this someday once we got together or maybe even when you're still courting me but I just want you to know that I'm glad to have you. I'm glad that I met someone like you, who will cope up with my bipolarity and my craziness. Someone who will be there for me when I need someone to talk to, to make jokes with, to laugh and cry with. I just want you to know that I feel blessed to have you in my life.

              I'm a girl who doesn't need and demand so much. So it's okay if you can't take me out on frequent dates, treat me out every once in a while (because I don't like to get treated out most of the time, I get too shy and embarrassed when everyone does that to me all the time). I do not wish you to treat me like a princess or a royalty, for I want you to treat me as me, the Aika you liked and fell in love with (if that is). Future boyfriend, I don't really need material things, I'm not a materialistic person so basically your presence is enough. Your hugs and smile (and maybe-- a kiss) is enough. You don't need to be rich or have a lot of money to buy me the things I want just to impress me. I just want you to be the way as you are, and our relationship to be simple but lasting.

              Future boyfriend, I just want you to know that I've been through a lot. I've been hurt and experienced one-sided love all the time before I met you. I'm afraid of commitments and relationships so I'm sorry if at first I had to push you away despite the sincere feelings you are showing to me. But then, I want to fall in love again but I'm afraid to get hurt once more so please be patient with me, make me feel loved and help me know what it feels to fall in love again. 

              Dear future boyfriend, as I told you a while ago, I'm not a demanding person. So if you are busy with everything, it's alright. I'll understand you, just that please? Make that we can have a time to spend with each other even just 2-3 times a month. It's okay with me, I'll be contented with that. I just want you to know that no matter how complicated your life is, or how much flaws you have in your system, no matter how sheepish, awkward and you are, it's alright with me. What matters is that our love for each other, and the effort I know that you are exerting to make this relationship we had much stronger.

             I just want you to know that I'm a fangirl. A K-Pop fangirl. And I don't know if you are a K-Pop fan too but if you're not, I'm sorry if sometimes I spazz and drool at those Korean boy groups I've been supporting with for the past 3 years of my life. I like EXO, and SHINee. I like B.A.P, VIXX and Infinite too and I do cover dances especially for the girl group SECRET. My ultimate bias is Kim Junmyeon, also known as Suho. And I treat Kris Wu as my older brother because he's a good role model in my eyes, both of them are from EXO. I like SHINee's Key too and some other more. I'm sorry again if my facebook timeline is full of them, sorry if I suddenly scream or laugh out loud like some retarded when I'm with you. I just don't like when it comes a time that you'll suddenly ask me up and make me choose between you or them because I might suddenly break down and cry in front of you for I'll have a very hard time to choose okay? Hahaha. But you know what? I just realized this one not too long ago: 

That even if there are 10 million Junmyeons in front of me, I'd still choose you. 

Cheesy, ehy?

         I guess that's all I could say to you as for now? I wish we'd have a long lasting relationship and a strong faith in each other. And yeah, Trust. Wish we could have that in between us so that our relationship will become stronger and all. I need to go now, I have to study for my quizzes tomorrow. So long future boyfriend! ^_^

With love,
Aika ♥

So yeah, I suddenly decided to do this kind of thing. I don't know what has gotten into my mind. XD