Screw the World

I have honestly grown tired with the world. The mood is seriously dragging me down and me no likey.

I mean MAI GAWD, can you not?!?!

SUMMER ASSIGNMENTS ARE THE PAIN IN THE @$$.

Plus the fact that I got jaw surgery, I can't !!!! Everyone's putting me down, it's hard to find a way to smile.

I lost my inspiration to continue my stories and I feel like I probably won't ever find it again. Kpop is slowly slipping away from me since I sort of found a new obsession... which is Minecraft...

But it's an on and off feeling. I've been drawing my favorite players and one pic of DAEJAE and guess who had to put me down. MY OWN ING FAMILY.

Going to be a junior this coming year and nothing is going well.

I changed so much over the summer and I want to start all over with ppl. I don't want to know anybody this school year. It's better if I was just a loner. I mean all I need is my laptop, my poster filled room, me idols, and minecraft. OOO forgot about pokemon and my phone. That's all I need.

Even the release of BADMAN didn't cheer me up. GUISE SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!

HALP.

 

But since I'm a junior, mom's pressuring me into choosing my major... I don't know what I want to be. I can't do anything. The pressure hurts and it's hard.

I just don't know anymore. I would tell my friends, but I can't trust them enough. which is honestly kind sad.

Not to mention when I had my surgery, no one bother to ask if I was okay. I'm not important guise.

I've noticed I've always been a kid at heart and everyone wants me to grow up now...

They all want me to change...

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My6TeenzOnTop #1
Awww, hey try to cheer up :)
There's people like us here who are willing to help you feel better ... Or at least try to >~<
I totally know how you feel. I also know that feeling of not being important enough for anyone. I've been there & sometimes, I still do feel that way.
Haha, funny, I find you & I to be pretty similar. I, too, can't trust my friends. It's hard to let anyone know about how I feel or what I really think of life. My summer homework is also pressuring & stressing me. OTL. It's stupid to even have that, like literally.
Having to try to even smile at a time like this. Maybe your true motivation & inspiration just hasn't shown up yet. Things like this will be hard & it's times like this that will make your future bright if you really put up with it & don't give up.
I know how all the pressure & stress feels. It's even worst that I hold it inside of me, but I guess it's because I found my inspiration that makes me still wanting to stand my guard & be strong. You just need to wait & find your true inspiration for life.
Having pressure from your mom to tell you to choose your major is normal, I guess. I'm sure lots of parents do that to their kids. In a time like this, try to tell your mom that you're still seeking it & still trying to find what you really want to do. Or, you can at least give her some ideas of what you might want to be or something related to it. Like, say you like to write, just an example because I'm not sure what you truly like LOL. Tell her that you're probably going to major in something that has to do with writing but not sure what yet & that you're going to find out more in that field. Maybe then she'll stop pressuring you so much because you already have a general idea :)
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