I got bad news about a friend here on AFF. It made me really, really sad. To think how fragile a life is, how it can be easily shattered... it's sad. Why are lonely? Aren't we supposed to have 'our person', some kind of soulmate/best friend/lover/ kindred spirit to stay by our side, to keep us safe at least mentally?

Why are we so mean to each other? Is there really no kindness left in us? Or is it that our heart grows smaller as our brain develops more and more? Then our ending is not the apocalypse, but the death of feelings. We'll end up being humanoids, with the impossibility to feel the warmth of a beating heart, to understand the meaning of love or feeling sorry. That's the end that awaits us if we keep this up.

It's sad, really, really sad...

But you know what? I won't let my friend be alone! Because above anything else, I am a human myself and I know that a mistake can have a heavy price to pay. And nothing compares with the price of blood. And so, I will stand by her side, despite the million of miles between us. Dear, I'm right here, I'll be your kindred spirit if there's no one else by your side. And I'm sure there will be others that will understand. You just... come back to us, alright?

Found this song that really matches her story:

          "All of these lines across my face        

Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am

But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true, I was made for you

You see the smile that's on my mouth

It's hiding the words that don't come out
All of the friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know I'm in this mess

No they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what I've been through..."

Today I won't write. I can. I'm sorry that I failed you all, but I just can't...

Ask Kat

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 For B2uties: "Shadow: How to Love"