Do you know what it feels like to have a sister? Maybe you do, or maybe you don't.

I'm 14 this year, my sister is 12. I wanna share something.

Maybe you;

1. Don't care about your sister hanging out with her friends to somewhere without you.

2. Hate her.

3. Not jealous of her.

4. Etc.

I'm sorry if it's not arrange in order.

Well, and also maybe you;

1. Do care about her going out with her friends to somewhere without you.

2. Love her but you did not show it.

3. Jealous of her.

4. Etc.

So, what I'm telling you right now is. I care a lot about my sister. 

1. Whenever she is out there, with her friends, I get so worry. I don't want she to be out there without me. I may sound so selfish but I just don't trust her. I don't because I'm afraid something bad will happen to her. I don't feel like, she is safe with her friends but I can mark my words that she is SAFE being with me because IF there's something bad happen to her, I know what to do. I know what I'm doing. I'm willing to do anything for her.

2. I do love her even though when I ask her or my mom ask her do she love me. She will said, "Eww, no. She is not my sister. Pui." I don't mind. I know she love me. Does this sound wrong to you? Do you feel disgust when I told you about this? Stop reading then. 

3. Yes, I get jealous of her at some times. Even though I know, I should not be. I realise, I'm pretty than her. More clever than her.  But there's two things I don't. One, she can go out with her friends anytime. I can't because my dad wants me to accompany my mom. Two, I'm the one who always do the house chores. She only sit down there doing nothing, reading fanfics and fangirling. I don't like it, feels like I'm a maid.

4. I don't know why I'm sharing this to you ==' Maybe because I can't stand it. I miss my friends T_T

Thank you for reading.