So today I've been really discouraged and somehow lost respect for some things. Today was the second day of my great-grandma from mom''s side of the family. They are a non-christian family, which makes them shamans vs. Us who are Christians. ( my dad's side). So the service went on and a lady from church h was supposed to sing a Christian song. My mom asked her to sing it behalf of my mom for my great grandma....towards the end the 'higher' status dumb s wouldn't allow it....so yeah right now I just go e about their religion.. I'm just so fed up that this whole time we respected their religion, yet they don't respect ours for less than 4 minutes. After what we sort of stormed off home. My mom took the picture of my family off the showcase table to see who was related to my great grandma. I know I should forgive them and ask for forgiveness because of the profanity words that we used. I'm mad that my mom had to make up some lame excuse bc we "wasted" the Singer's tome for coming. I'm like " if you guts didn't want us in the first, just straight up tell us instead of being asses about it." I don't know any more. I don't want to hold something against them, not yet can i forgive them.