i'm doing something wrong when it comes to my friends.

when one stops talking to me or gets mad i can't take it seriously

i don't care if they're mad or not/

my friend stopped talking to me, and she was quite possibly the closest i had in a while, but she decided to unfriend me

she came up to me and was like,, if you don't tell me (whatever she wanted to know) she wouldn't be my friend anymore.

so i was like, sure then

so it happened

she didn't talk to me for a whole two months.

and for that time i didn't care.

i have lots of friends.

but i think, if my personality changed, they would all leave me.

i actually think that

but... i'm not worried.

i don't care about that either.

i'm friendly with lots of other people but i don't have a close friend that i can tell everything to .

maybe i'll find them..

and i have this other friend.

but personally he pisses the hell out of me'

i went ape at him.

he's pissed at me

and i don't care.

but i was mad at him in the first place.

but he put up with all my kpop .

but he calls them girls and i hate the way he refers to them

lots of people think i'm generous and kind and all sharing and unselfish

i think i am the most selfish person i know

i do everything for a reason

i share when my crush is around, 

i have certain people i put up with because they know my crush well

they think i go around to new tables to make new friends when actually i choose the best place to stare at my crush

i don't bother to keep up with my older friends,

sure i say hi when i see them but it's rare since i moved quite far

the friends i have now.

if they all stopped talking to me, i wouldn;t care

hur hur. my life is ed up