Feeling Left Out

Yeah... it's been proven to me many times that nobody pays any attention to me. I'm not saying that I desprately want attention, but I feel like the easy to notice things that I say/do are completely getting ignored.
 
Small example: My mom didn't even know I liked pineapples until three months ago... and pineapple is my favorite fruit to eat.
 
Bigger example: My mom is making a big fuss about getting everything I need and everything I want to get ready for college. The thing is... I don't really want new things, but if I wanted new things I just want them simple. She's making huge deal about something as simple as bed sheets... which I think is ridiculous. All I friggin need is sheets, a pillow, and a blanket to call it good. (That's all I need).
 
I understand that my mom is wanting the best for me, but I feel like she's pushing me into a corner with all this and I'm barely getting to say exactly what's on my mind.
 
I'm the type of person who goes with the flow and tries to include everyone. The one time that they say "I will be getting what I want" - Never happens.
 
I'm also the type to not really make a solid decision unless it's something I'm strongly passionate about. But the thing is... nobody ever asks me what it is that I want. When I want to tell them something, it seems like they (more or less my mom) have already picked out what it is that they think I want. Sometimes they're right on the money, but not for this.
 
Sigh... this is really frustrating.
 
Also on a somewhat different note, I know I kind of do this too but I'm really trying to stop this habit. On AFF, I'm a silent reader... Yeah, I try to comment, but I can't think of anything to say. On some of my stories, I feel like I get few commenters despite the subscriber count. This makes me think my efforts aren't really worth it. It's not anyone's faut, but that's the type of person I am; if I get no feed back, I feel like it's a wasted effort.
 
I really don't know what I'm going to do... sometimes I just feel like giving up on everything.
 
I need help... but I don't know how to ask or what for.
 
Now I'll go... drowing in my own tears... I don't know if music will help, but it's worth a try.
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2am-ramen #1
it's okay to self pity yourself okay?
and cheer up.
everything, good or bad has an end. just be patient with all of this ^^

i'm here if you need to talk to someone okay? :P
always online LOL ^^

cheer up, fellow tomboy :P
Afshii #2
Hey, I know exactly how you feel too... been in the same situation and I react EXACTLY the same as you when it comes to fanfics.
Though really, don't stress out and turn anxious.
It'll be better.
<3 I'm here for you
*hugs*
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