overly dramatic
sometimes i hate myself for being immature.
i know i have to accept the fact that I am JUST a fan, but sometimes i really can't get hold of my own feelings.
i tend to be clingy (possesive) with my bias to the extent that i get hurt just by seeing him with someone else. (particularly with other girls)
i know its a part of his job and i'm really being immature right now for being sad over some picture.
sometimes i even wish that i was just not a fan girl anymore.
so that i can save myself from heartbreaks from the person who doesn't even know my existence.
and to think that i actually adore the girl. I can't bring myself to hate her or the group.
i'm just feeling really pathetic by feeling this way.
maybe i just need to grow up a little by knowing my limitations of loving a person from afar.
because no matter how i'll wish or pray, Jongin will always be Peter Pan who will find himself a Wendy someday.
an i'm just one of the Tinkerbells who will sit and stare, cry my heart out someday. :'(
Sorry Jongin, I'll try to grow up a little more. :'(
(yeah this is about Jongin and the f(x) thingy)
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