I don't know why I'm posting this right here. Maybe because I have a massive need to talk about it XD

It's a story about how I fell in love and how I entered Kpop world. Yes, it's related ^^

I was always fascinated by Asian world. My first encounter was with Japan, because I liked mangas and I used to watch anime. From them on I developed a passion for the country and I found myself absorbed in their culture. I really thought I would burst in tears of joy the time I would fly over there. So when I entered the University and found out that there were a lot of exchange students from Asia I was so excited and happy. However it never happened the chance to talk to them and didn't even know from where they came from. As you can imagine my fantasy run wild. There was one of them that enchanted me. He was the only one who smiled and talked with people not from his country. He was different. Anyway at that same period of time I bumped in a AU Naruto fanfiction whose background was Seoul. The author mentioned Big bang. I got curious and search them on the web. The first song of kpop I ever had was "koe wo kikasete", a song singed by them in Japanese by the way. It didn't impressed me too much but the more I listened to it the more I liked it. later I discovered they were korean and from that on I check out other korean songs. Big bang was my first kpop group and for this they will always held a special spot in my heart. Along the way I came to like other groups but I will always love their songs more, their music kept me company during the infinite hours I spent observing the guy I liked. kpop became my own personal ost. two years ago I finally had a chance to meet and know him thanks to a project we have to do . And bam, surprise. he was chinese. I have to admit I never cared about China before he came, I could only think about Japan, however my passion shifted. I tried to know more about his country. And the culture. Knowing him better made realize that it wasn't the only the asian look but the person he was. I didn't liked him for his country but I stated to like the county because of him. At that point there was no way of return. I made up excuses to spend time with him. We became friends, sort of. However I had to hide my feelings, I had this fear that crossing the line would make him disappear an go back to his own world, there was indeed a cultural barrier that put a line between us. Of course exactly when all my effort was starting to pay off I had to leave to study abroad. I could came back only 7 months later and all has change meanwhile. the exchange program has drained all my energies and destroyed all my need of romance feelings. Even so the moment I came back and saw him at the university I understood my feelings where still there. but I had to start all over again and this time I was more fragile and he wasn't so willing to collaborate with me. It was really sad. At that time I discovered EXO M. it's silly I know, but listen to their songs made feel more near him. I tried to learn by myself chinese in the end I attended a course to understand better. I never again had the chance to fix the bond of friendship or whatever it was. classes ended and except a couple of times I didn't see him again. I knew it was a one sided love but still. I wanted so much to confess but I was afraid, I never felt so afraid before and the chance slipped through my fingers. I graduated and we took different paths but I still had feelings for him. I never met with him again. Two days ago I heard he graduated. He once told me that after graduation there was a high chance he had to go back to his home town: Shanghai. I had a little break down two days ago. a lot of time has passed I even went out with someone else and I thought I forgot but I didn't completely. I want to come back at that time, but my chance has passed, but if I could I would tell him how much I really liked him and how grateful I'm towards him, he made me discover a whole new world, he gave me inspiration.

So this is my story. I always feel like crying whenever I listen to Lies of BB, and Baby don't cry of Exo M will always manage to reduce me into an emotional wreck.

ps: Lay reminds A LOT of him. They are similar. So imagine my mixed feelings every time I see the unicorn on tv programs XD