HELLO!! XD

I just want to share these things that i've been keeping for awhile.. 

these days i've been very disappointed and sad due to many reasons.. but more than half of it is because of my friends..

well, these days, maybe because of us were busy and going to different colleges, me and my friends are not that having any communications with each other. well, we do but by just texting.. that's all. 

but the problem is.. 

i feel like they have forgotten about me and i feel hurt. i don't know what to do anymore..TT.TT

the first weeks that school started i oftenly texted them about their whereabouts and how they are doing, their school, and whatsoever. but for these past few days, i haven't did that. you know why? it's because i feel being ignored... it's not like they're not replying to me but these days, it seems like they have their own worlds.. :(

and i noticed that ever since we started college it's always me asking or texting them but they never initiated those.. well, maybe sometimes but if we'll calculate it maybe it is just 1.5 percent out of 10 percent. seee? 

and last week, i'm really glad that they texted me but the thing is they're just asking for favors or just asking me..

my first friend asked me to get this application form from where i am studying so that she can give it to someone she knows and the other one asked me if i know this certain person and when i said that i didn't know her and asked her why is she asking that, she didn't reply anymore.. the other one.. well, she's the kind who only have load once in a blue moon so it's okay for me.. 

last tuesday, this bestfriend of mine (the one who asked and didn't reply me) rode on the same bus as mine but we didn't get to sit next to each other because i can't leave the people i am with.. and she sat in front of me, (we all know each other, the people with me and her know each other, okay?) and she just said hi and sat and just talked to me for a minute and left after saying goodbye to me when she got to her destination. i don't know, i just don't feel like talking to her when that happened (the texting and no replies scene)

all i can say is, i'm really ignored, irritated, frustrated, hurt, and everything.. i mean.. they're my best of friends and a single text won't hurt right? like asking me how am i doing or what?! 

do i sound so desperate? or selfish?? all i just want is attention... 

but if they found other friends, it's alright for me.. TT.TT

i really hate what i'm feeling right now!! >.< am i being dramatic or what? it's normal to feel these things towards your friends, right?