So I just saw this video of a girl dancing and all, and I'm just depressed. SHE DANCES SO GOOD when I barely move my leg. I danced for 4 years for nothing basically (When I was 7-11y.o). The choreographies were absolute , every year we would repeat the same dance steps and the concept was always the same, so no wonder we never won anything. It was a bad dancing club, gotta say. 

Anyway, since then my family is kind of poor, so I never ever went to any classes or trainings again. And I miss dancing, I was good I gotta say. But then I got arthritis and now it hurts whenever I want to dance, and at home I don't even have space. 

I feel like compared to others, I can like only, sit at home and listen to music. I want to do so many things, but I can't because I don't know how to, and when I actually do sth, and I think it's okay I show it to somebody and they say ''Well, it ain't bad''.

jesus christ, i wanna dance too t.t