"It's all about time management."

That was what the speaker kept on emphasizing to us last leadership training seminar. And he indeed was able to manage his time properly. And in some ways, I somehow saw myself in him.

It was hard to juggle one week between academics, two university-wide organizations/clubs and a soccer training. When I watched Amazing f(x) and saw Krystal said how she felt like an outcast because she's not always with her friends, I know exactly how it felt like. I got to hangout with a lot of people... different kinds of them. Sometimes I felt sad how my classmates would go out to the mall or to the movies after classes while I still have to attend some meetings or trainings until evening. And since I couldn't get to spend most of my time with each group, I felt so outdated with all the latest happenings with their lives. I'm not the type of person who mingles a lot too. I didn't know actually how I survived my last two years in undergrad/college in that kind of setting.

It was lonely at some point, but I had to learn how to cope with it. I had to learn how to be flexible enough. I have to be strong. I have to survive.

And it all paid off. Somehow, I guess the university appreciated those little things I got myself into, and appreciated how I managed my time. And when I started in my med school, you will start saying, "How I wish one day is more than 24 hours." I've given up some family time and some invites from my college and HS friends to hangout, just to be able to have extra time to read my books or study for a never ending test.

Is it lonely?

Yes and no.

It's lonely at times because I'm not always with my classmates, I'm not always with my teammates, I'm not always with my family, etc. and there are times that I really feel so left out.

But the promise of bringing hope to people who's losing theirs, makes my heart feel so happy.

And I hope that time will come that I will be able to lessen the things that I have to manage. LOL Training tomorrow after classes!