I want to be adored like the idols, i want to perform on stage with confidence with everyone who had watched me saying "wow she's so good" "she's so talented", i want to be able to make friends with people who also has passion in music and that we would play music together all day and immerse ourselves in the wonders of music, i want to get acknowledged by the society so that my parent's would be proud of me, i want to be idolized by the new generation and be a role model for them, just like how the idols are inspiring me right now.

i've been having such an ambition for a long time now, and i can never imagine myself being something other than that.

although the chances of it happening is so ridiculously small. but hey, nothing is impossible, right?

even when i'm judged for liking music that doesn't belong to my culture

even when i'm labeled as a attention seeking kid like everyone else who dreams of being a star

even when i'm told by people you cant get far in this industry, and you wouldnt be able to feed yourself with such a job

i want it so badly. i really do.

however, if I fail, things will get ugly. Really ugly.

but at least I wouldn't regret it on the day i breathe my last breaths.

this is a path of no return.