Three words to say .

My brother .

I don't even know since when I start to hate him . I mean , he is just like 1 year younger than me .

To be exact , 355 days younger than me.  People always say and thought that we are close since I am not that old than him .

But to be truth , this A-class jerk a.k.a the brother of mine is a total . And I start hating him more and more because he is a total jerk .

I mean , I do all the house chores. Believe me when I say ALL . I wash, dry and even fold his clothes. I do all the dishes , vacuuming , moping even watering the plant . He only throw the rubbish and lock the gate . That's all.

Almost 16 years living on this earth , he only washes his clothes twice. First , when I am doing a protest and second when I say curse words at him .

Then , how can even say to all my aunts that he is tired from doing all the house stuffs and bla bla bla and I dont even help him a bit. And I can even still remember how my aunts nag to me saying that I shoud help him since I am the only daughter and at the moment for God sake , I swear I would throw him to Niagara Falls if possible.

Worst come to worst. A few days ago , I had a conversation like this with my dad .

Dad : So , it seems like you have to help me doing all the chores since ur brother is not here.

Me : Didnt I do it all ever since before ?

Dad : You are kidding me. He do most of it .

That is the end. I walk to my room and slammed my door.

But , I hate myself. I can be angry for a long time. Especially to my parents. I end up doing things they ask me to the moment they uttered the command. And I cant even say NO.  It's difficult you know.

Being the only daughter , I cant even rest for a minute I guess . This morning , my mom got mad at me just because I lie down for a few minutes before taking my breakfast because I need to wait for my med to be processed first *or sort of* She knows nothing and ask me to start washing the clothes.

Worst - most of it are my brother's

I spend like almost every night , crying alone in my room thinking how my life will be. I have an older brother but he's now in university so basically I play the role as the only daughter and also as the first child.

While my brother go out , spending his penny that my parents give and yet , I stay home , do all the chores and dont get even a single penny.

But , living as myself, I always try to think on the bright side. Like , I shouldnt think like this , I shouldnt fell that way and yet , at the end , I'm hurting myself.

#I am sorry for writing a very long post . It's just , I dont now to whom I should talk and split it all out.But I'm pretty sure that some of you out there also feels the same. Or perhaps , worst. So , I try to heal myself alone#

P/S : EXO new song is kinda cool . All the members become super hottie. Like man , how can they even become like a real WOLVES ! Super amazing ! And I'm waiting the drama version. I saw a Kai is kissing . And is it Luhan too ? Hoho , I should just wait . Oh wait , another reminder ..  Female exotics , please dont throw anything to ur computer screen when watching the kiss scene . Kekekekekekeke....

And I'm also sorry for not updating for way tooooooooooo long. Many things happen and after everything settle down , I swear I will do okay :) Shine bright like a diamond <3 LOL :p