{ Thank you }

(This will be long. Don't say I didn't warn you)

I will, from now on, stop my actions on Asianfanfics regarding reading stories, commenting on stories, answering to messages, answering to wall post and answering to comments (with a few exceptions).

I know, in fact, that many people won't understand it. On the other hand I do know that a lot other people will. I have stated some reasons here. The general feeling I described in this conversation got even worse, plus some personal issues. (I just don't see why I should quietly accept non-constructive critics from twelve year old girls who want to give me advices on how to write better. Sorry, not taking this .)

I will not stop uploading new stories and reading comments. However I will only upload certain stories.

(If you want to make sure I read your comment, I answer all comments on livejournal.)

{Thank you for new people}

I appreciate that a website like Asianfanfics.com exists, where people with the same interest can meet and share their contributions to a certain fandom and opinions on fanwork. Really, I do. I'm not saying I am not thankful, because coming here definitely was a good descicion considering how many awesome stories I've read, how many lovely people I've met and last but not least how much I actually found out about myself.

sweetsweat - Maria my love, even if I'm kind of being an right now, I know you accept me the way I am and the fact that we're connected for over a year again warms my heart with every message more. You've showed me what it's like to fall for words, a personality and thoughts and not a body or something similar materialistic. I know your weak spots and you know mine, and there is probably no one who knows more about my deepest secrets. Thank you for bearing with me - I love you!

GeminiDragon - Viv darling, I know we don't talk as much as we should, but I've found a great sister in you whom I cherish a lot, even though you live on the other side of this (stupid) planet! You, Maria and me are the golden trio who over 2PM - even if I'm more or less EXO biased recently. But that's not what defines our friendship, and I will make a huge note to talk more oftenly to you because you deserve all the attention!

uberchrome - Jullien. I normally don't talk to you like that (more like u little ehehe) but idk I feel like you deserve some soft and nice words (you really do). You really don't know how much I admire your writing talent, because you're still young yet so good with words. I always feel like I'm pressing myself on you and annoy you, but I just want to make sure that - despite how hopeless any situation might be - I'll listen. And I know I'm probably not "old enough" for this, but I'll also try to help.

Panda-Drama - pandarino, my lovely german friend! I know we originally met through tumblr but I just feel like the writing is connecting us deep within. You never fail to send me inspiration and help me when I'm down. We're same-age, but I feel so childish compared to you - both when it comes to intelligence and opinions/thoughts on different subjects. Make sure you know how much I like talking to you, okay?! (p.s. you're also the only person I can with in german.)

I feel like I haven't mentioned enough people, because I really do cherish every single wall entry/message/comment but I think I found the four major friends I have found here. I've only been here 1 year and 2 months but I feel like I've grown a lot ever since, thanks to these people.

{Thank you for new thoughts}

This segment will be boring if you don't care about who I am and what I think. Through the last year, I have faced some huge crisis about me and my personality but that's not something I want to talk about here. I want to talk about what made me write(, because I think the reasons keep me more motivated than the results as they are rather poor).

claustrophobis desires - This was the first fanfiction where I actually wrote a lot about myself, my fears of what will facing me in the future and my iffiness. At the same time I re-found my love for emotions. I felt a lot better afterwards.

Le temps est à l'orage - I know this shortfic hardly got any attention, and I'm not blaming anyone. It's plot is nothing big and it's not that well written. Yet I remember exactly when I wrote it and it makes me horribly nostalgic, because despite my love for the city, I miss sitting by the window in my old room watching the thunderstorm while smoking. /weeps tears, sorry/

smudged coal and ivory keys & Clair de Lune - Probably my most famous/popular (at least the first one). A pure story dedicated to the gloriousness of Chopin/romanticism and another one dedicated to my love for the night. These stories started the bitter taste I have found in my stories ever since because it made me realise how hopelessly romantic and melancholic I am. I like to blame people, but here, I can only blame myself.

{Thank you for a new future}

I'm not hard to approach. People keep on telling me I often seem intiminating and smug but really, I am not. You can always write me, contact me, mention me, I will be nice.

That may sound like I'm fake but I just generally like making new friends. I'm easy to deal with, and if I really don't like you (won't happen) I will show it. If you catch me in a horrible bad mood and I'm mean to you, I will come crawling on all four the next morning begging for forgiveness. lol.

Anyway. This is for the people who actually (ever) wish to talk to me:

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Good Bye!