I just... need a place to ramble... and since I lost my journal it'll be here...

Hmm... How should I put it?

Nobody's perfect, AND HERE ARE THEIR IMPERFECTIONS

Dear... let's say... Daisy,

I love you. You're one of my best friends. You make me laugh, feed me, help me, and encourage me. You are really important to me. HOWEVER, at times you can be so stupid! I mean, how can you not know how to look for images in Google? And you don't even know how to paste them in Word... Seriously, are you retarded or something? We learned this in 1st grade. Or are you just too lazy to do your work? I know, I know, you're on your period (hence why you're such a pain), you're tired and feel sick, but I can't do all your work, okay? I let you copy my homework, the one I wasted hours on doing, copy my quizzes and tests, explain math problems to you, but looking for an image in Google for you is too much. And by the way, if you want more images in the project, look for them yourself cause I worked enough already!

Dear... Esther,

Coming to school to give me your work and leaving doesn't count as you working. Seriously, what do you expect me to do with your part of the project? It is your part, I know nothing about it. How will I organize your part when I don't even understand it? And I shouldn't even if I did understand it. It's your work, not mine. I did my part, you should do yours!

Dear Mary,

I've always thought of you as a responsible person. Guess I was wrong. You didn't even come to give me your work unlike Esther, you did nothing. And when you do come with your work, it's poorly done. You promised to print more images to make it look better, but you never did. And also, your other part of the work... You didn't do it at all. In the end, I had to.

Dear all of the above,

Do you guys really expect me to do all your work? Can't you be a little more useful? you had 1-2 pages each. I had freaking 10 pages! And I did all the best I could in all of it! I even had to work on some of your parts! And when you guys said you'd get more images, you didn't. I did. I looked for them, wrote the articles, printed the headlines (the amount of ink I had to waste is outrageous!), pasted them, decorated them... I did everything. And then you expect me to tell the teacher you all worked?

Dear Alice,

I need to write you separately cause unlike the others you did work. You came and helped me, so thank you. But still, what you did can't compare to all of what I had to do. Honestly you deserve a 100%, but if you get it, I deserve a 300%.

Dear members of Amy's group,

There's three of you excluding Amy. Poor Amy, she's intelligent, nice, and full of potential, but you guys spoiled her into a b*tch. Still, she tries her best to organize the project and you guys won't listen! Now what really made me upset is what you guys did today. You really had to steal my papers? I said I'd give you some if I had any left, but now I really don't have any left! And you try to appear innocent... The teacher knows you guys took them and is willing to give you zeros because of that, but Amy doesn't deserve it.

Gosh... this days have been horrible. I haven't been sleeping or eating properly due to this project. I've been so stressed and I really acted like a b*tch towards many people. But hey, anyone would if you had this huge 14 page newspaper project and you had to do 90% of it alone. I worked on 7 pages, and I was really willing to do no more, but if I didn't work on the remaining pages no one would. I hate the fact that even after all the work, some teammates aren't satisfied.

If you don't like it, change it yourself! If you're not willing to, then don't complain!

Also, the teacher asked us to evaluate our group members, and they're all saying I need to give them a perfect score when they did nothing! Out of 4 points three members deserve a 0, the only one that helped me deserves a 4, while I deserve a 10. I really overworked myself to much. And later, the stupid group comes and steals our papers. Just, why? I was about to go crazy! And I was so stressed I even started crying... I needed to kick someone in the nuts, but since I couldn't, crying it was. I just hate it when you're so angry the only thing you can do is cry...

*Sigh* Well, after letting it all out, I do feel better~~

I took the first nap in three weeks, and God I feel so good! I also talked to my best friend in New York about the EXO comeback.

I miss you so much, Fei 奶奶... You have no idea!