I know I shouldnt feel this kind of reaction to them since there not my family but the way they treat me is just.. wrong. The way I feel for the years Ive been in highschool was just so stuck up that I almost cry everyday. Either the same person or just anyone. I kinda feel depressed but If I go back to my self 4 years ago I think I may change for the bad again. Ill stay in my ground. Ill keep quite for now, as usual.

They treat me like an outcast. I just simply hate it. Me, doing the best I can to smile knocks all he pain out. Sometimes I just wanna cry for no reason. It hurts. Its been a long time already since I wasnt depressed and swollen in anger with fear. This is a new era for me.

I need to keep calm. Be my self. No other emotions involved. They keep calling me spoiled. Now thats a word I was never am! I mean really! How can they say that since I know it myself that Im not this kind of person. I dont have this trait at all. Not once.. And other words like choosy and childish. I know Im childish and I agree that to myself. But I know how to act mature at the most convient time. Im childish people not immature.

But they will be moving away about a week from now and Im going back to my family. My original family.

Once I do that, I can update some more^^ They keep telling me that what I am doing right now (writing fanfics) are considered as useless. Am I even paid to this-they said. I dont care. This is my way to pass time. And I like making stories that can very dreamlike cause I pass down what I wanted to do in life in writing. I also like English alot. Its my passion. This is another way to improve my skills. I guess they can never understand because there too busy hanging out with people who will evntually leave them. Pssh, as if.

Well, what else... will come..

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Sorry guys, Im a little emotional right now.. xD

There just lucky cause they have a laptop =3=

I.. this is what Im feeling right now. And I cant explain what I feel~ ahahaha

So.. I hope I gave you something to say to about myself.

Im still young.. They just dont get it..

Okay, Im happy again! xD

FIGHTING!!! \0/

;)