why is this happning? why are you telling all of these things when you  know i cant accept it? Then the other asks me a question and i cant find an answer to give him! i feel so useless, if i wait to long then youll grow tired of me ottoke?! i cant take this anymore i has put me to to much pain! if i accept then i get judged like i alwayss do i dont want to hurt you im hurting myself in the process. i trying the best i can but i cant do it!  WHY DO I FEEL LIKE IM THAT PERSON WHO IS THAT USELESS I CANT ANSWER A SIMPLE DAMN QUESTION!!!!