Just a random blog from a random person

 

Anyone here is a Moslem?

I am one of them and of course I know what is Quran. Especially my country is in Indonesia, the largest Moslem country in the world (country with most of its people are Moslem than the other country).

I read Quran 3 times in a week. I attend a religius lesson in my school. The teacher, of course, explained about things in Moslem religion. Not excepting the prohibition from our God.

 

Love.

 

What do you think? 

Of course its not prohibited. Instead, God created us with our own couple when we were sent into this world. So actually, as what I had read from Quran, we already have our own soulmate since we were born. We just need to wait for the time to make us meet.

But.

 

Same gender love.

 

That is what I'd like to discuss in this blog.

Gay, Lesbian.

Is it right?

I think about this really hard, because I am one of them too. I am a biual too. But I am a Moslem. That's what makes me have this feeling. This "guilty in pleasure" feeling.

I know everybody in this world might have a thoughts that

"Love is Blind."

Not caring the religions. Genders. Countries. Distances.

Because I have that thoughts too. 

I have that thoughts but I also have this guilty feelings in me.

I know the prohibition. I know the punishment. I know how God will be angry to me.

 

But I cant leave this love from my heart.

I cant hurt it. I want to keep it. Forever. 

I dont wanna lose it. I want it to be mine and only mine.

 

But in the other hand, I also feeling guilty and afraid. To God.

To the punishment in the afterlife world later. To the torture of hell. 

I am really afraid.

 

But what can I do?

 

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If someone is there, please leave a comment on this blog. I swear to God I didnt mean to make fun of those people who are mentioned in this blog. I am serious with this blog. I never meant to hurt any of you. Trust me.

But if I did, then please accept my appologize.

Thank you for reading