Hello everyone, how's life? fine? or...? but of course I hope all of you are fine because if you're not, then how could you read my blog spot? hehe, lame!

Okay, this is my first time writing a blog post here to tell you about my feeling. Oh, it's the second time! I just remembered I was having such a bad bad day and felt ed and I wrote a blog about how I don't want to continue my fanfiction because people seems like won't support me blah blah blah...

Now, it's still the same. Bad day, but I don't use the 'I-won't-continue-my-ff-for-a--while' thing again because... yeah everyone needs a break, for me, I've got mine very long.

 

So, a lot is going in my mind. Like, love life, k-pop, friends, etc.

I'd like to tell you about school first, ok? I'm going to graduate soon and in the count of six days I'm going to have my high school entrance exam and you have to know, in my country the exam is a mess. I'm not insulting my own country, I am protesting as a nervous student who is going to have her exam soon.

They said they will give out twenty different serial of the question. I just wanna go YOURSELF MAN, but people know me as a polite person (I'm not building my image, if I speak harsh words my mother will kill me) so I didn't say it out loud and you know how much risky it is to save everything deep down inside? TOO RISKY.

I just want to say, please... Understand our position, the exam you're going to give out to us, the student is just nonsensical. twenty serials? Is that possible? If yeah, you give out twenty different serials, don't use the trustee whatsoever the right english for it.

I'm rooting. I'm not a studying freak and I believe you are not either, so why?!

 

and about friends? hmm... This is actually private, even my best best friend hasn't heard it from me.

I feel like, I'm not worthy to have friends like mine.

It always feels like I'm the bad girl in the group, who doesn't like to study, who likes to gossip people around, who just spills everything I feel.... However, it feels like they don't like me for the way I am.

They play with me, they laugh with me, it just feels like... they don't trust me like they trust their other friend. If there's anything I want in life the most, is to be trusted by everyone. I know, I have times when I need to lie, but... Am I that brutal liar that people won't believe me?

I'm not saying that they do not trusted me. I've never asked them personally, but... I just feel that way T T

I write it here because my friends don't like korea and just me. It's just literaly just me in the group who likes korean thingy.

I have my virtual fangirl friends, I like them, they're all nice but it's different. They are different, the real and virtual ones... of course the real one is the best.

but I actually love my real and my virtual friends equally <3 and I kind of need new friends and chat friend... so... you can mention to @sjusshirs or add my ktalk ID omohyuk hehe

 

About kpop?

well, same old, same old.

I still head over heels to them keukeukeu~

but there's someone in my timeline who always be a part pooper, she acts like she knows everything about k-pop. She's an ELF (i'm not insulting the blues, because HEY I'M ONE OF THE BLUES TOO) and you know how newbies ELF (okay, I hate people who consider theirselves as a senior, but sometimes we just need to brag to the tacky newbie that we stand longer than them) behave? I'm not talking about the newbie ELF in general, I'm just talking about HER, ok?

She acts like she knows everything about k-pop, sm and super junior, this is nauseating this is sends me hate to my tummy! She acts like "omg i miss hangeng, kibum, bla bla bla" MAN YOU WEREN'T EVER THERE WHEN THEY WALKED OUT OF THE GROUP STOP MESSING WITH YOUR IN DELUSIONAL MIND AND STOP CRYING BECAUSE YOU'RE EXAGEERATING EVERYTHING.

oh my, I can't mad at her because she's my friend, one of the loveliest and I don't want to hurt her heart but she has crossed the limit of mine.

I'm sorry if my words offend you, because to be very honest to myself. If you were my junior, then you'd see me as the mothering pride-defender senior, they said i'm a leader material but lol I don't even think about being one.

Okay, back to the girl. She's just a year being an ELF and already act like she knows everything oh puhlease.

 

Love life....

well, I have a boyfriend and from his act to me I know he likes me but he always fell asleep during our conversation and please believe me that is very annoying. When you're trying to crack a joke but suddenly the opponent fall asleep, the joke wouldn't be funny anymore.

I like him, quite a lot although he's not my oppa. But this is just annoying and I'm not in the state which I can deal with his falling-asleep habit, I'm over it, I am very mad now, but whenever he asked me if I'm alright, I always said yes because he doesn't like girls with the moody attitude. I know I can only say no and make him uncomfortable and accept me just the way I am, but he already sacrificed his mood to me, he had never mad at me the way I have, he always a patient boy and understand me, so it's impossible that I'd just say everything and pick a fight.

well, it's not impossible but... it's just make me low. 

 

I think that is that... :"))) hihihi, now I feel some weight is going off from my shoulders :)

Thanks for reading but eventhough you won't read it, I thank you :) hehehe.... <3