And yet again I scrolled down her tumblr pictures.

The way she'd changed without me. 

Sometimes I dream about her.

And I see her pictures I have in a hidden folder on my phone.

But I can't go back to her. She has a new love and it's almost like it's a forbidden love.

She calls me and everytime I say hi, she says "Hello,sugar. You seem nice."

The same thing she said when we met.

I cry and she tells me everythings alright.

 

She says she misses me...

She says she dosn love her new girl freind like she loved me.

She says she wants me back...

And I would do anything to be back in her arms.

But...

 

 

Should I go back?

 

To all the love that I didn't deserve

 

All the times i would cry in her arms were perfect though.

 

The times she called me sugar and she would visit me every weekend.

She would kiss my shoulder and say I'm sweet like sugar and would make me feel good all over.

 

And the similaritys between us..

she was like me. 

 

She would  get depressed a lot. And when we both felt sad or somthing bad happend, we would listen to a playlist of songs that i still have...

 

Scars- Papa Roach

Let The Wind Blow- LedApple

Comatose- Skillet

Tourniquet- Evenscene

Falling In The Black- Skillet

Meant To Live- Switchfoot

Gonna Go Far Kid- The Offspring

 

on a repeat while we would cry for hours....

 

 

 

 

I miss you

 

Ella...I miss you 

*sob*