How i wish that, that person knows what they had just said. 

how it crushed my heart into pieces, without putting much effort. 

how i wish that my heart would just forget all of these and just wake up from this never ending artifice.

because just now, i figured it out that i've no chance.

I need to end this pathetic reverie. 

I need to. i need to. 

so,,, please. help me. 

Oh God. how much i wanted to cry but can't because there are no tears that wants to fall..maybe myself knows me afterall. i just didn't knew. it doesn't want me to cry for something that is not worth it...is it really not worth it? is it, really? ... tell me self. could you even fight for it until the end? the both of you?

they never will. they never will.

Never.

ever.

Forever.

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I'm sorry. i just wanted to let it out. i don't wanna cry infront of the people in here. Think what you want to think. be it negative or not.

Martyr? what a moron. :|