Well it's my first time writing a blog but I just felt like writing it~

I only want to talk about my dream, which won't come true anytime soon!

4 years ago I fell for Yoochun at first sight (ok it wasn't exactly first sight because Jaejoong had my attention for about three hours but whatever) and since then I really really really really supported him and DBSK with all my heart! I never once regretted being a part of Cassiopeia and  I never once like any other group or artist more than DBSK or Yoochun. I am buying their albums/singles, I am practicaly staying awake just to see their upcoming teasers, I yell and scream and fangirling with all my might when there's a new episode from dramas, or new photoshoot, or a new song or just a new new! I fight with other people when they're being unfair to DBSK or when they call them untalented and ugly... I support them not matter what. I cry when they cry and laugh when they laugh. I write fanfics because I want them to have a happy ending just like stories and I am just waiting for the moment when I will be finally able to see them live, or touch them, or get an autograph or just a single smile...

I missed my chance to be in SMtown in Paris and I didn't get to see Yun and Min... and now JYJ are coming to Germany and this was a huge chance because OH MY GOD Yoochun is coming! Yoochun! My dream guy, the man I admire for 4 years! How could I miss this chance? Even if I didn't have money I starved myself and managed to gather about 100 euro. There is still a month thill the concert and I will be able to have all the money... but guess what?

My parents butted in and they refuse to let me go because they don't want me to spend my money there.... how ed up is that?

I know my parents care for me and they're doing what they think it's right... but to me it's still unfair. They can't see how much DBSK mean to me and it's kinda natural. I mean in their eyes it's just a silly boyband. I don't blame my parents... I just can't help feeling so sad. Because I want to see them. I want to listen to them! I want to scream out loud how much I love them hoping that they will listen to me. I want to be there and hope to get a glance from Yoochun. I want to be there and wave my "Yoochun marry me" banner. Why is life so unfair? Why?

I feel so depressed and nothing can actually comfort me.... I hate this but I really don't know who to blame.