I need to let go, but tumblr isn't working so I've no place express my feelings.

first of all I think I need to tell you that I am sorry for those waiting for an upload, I am extremely busy (with my social life and coming midterms) besides that I am putting some of my time in other creative things asides from writing such as calligraphy and photography.

anyway frustration. I made a mistake about a month ago. I kissed this guy I didn't really like, well I didn't know if I liked him or not because I didn't know him. and now I am getting to know him a bit I am frustrated because I think I start to like him but I'm not sure. I am sort of desperate for a boyfriend latetly so I'm not sure if I want him, or just a boy in general.

and he lives far away, from my hometown it's 1.5 hours by train from the town I'm currently living a little over 3 hours and it because I can't meet up with him to see if we're compatible in any way.

besides that I am not sure if I want to like him because he is a horrible kisser! and that's such a turn off..

okay so ... yeah.. I DON"T KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO, meet up with him, not meet up with him, just dump him anyway since he lives so far away.. arghg... frustrated.. frustrated

anyway sorry for rambling ..

I'm going to sleep now

xx